White World

poor tired leaders of the future

2006-09-26T17:59:00.000+08:00

inspired by an amusing encounter on the bus where this sec sch girl just conked out with her head nodding in all directions until she finally rested it on my shoulders.

i used to think that hey cant u control your head when u sleep?i can sleep and yet keep an upright position all the time.

now i know why.bcos i do that myself.often end up with neck aches and prob a few "baklukus"(bumps) on my head when i wham my head against the window.damm.

hey people, cant u see the worn out youths of today?cant u see them fishing out their mp3s and sleeping as if there's no tmr on the buses and trains?

saw my junior(now in njc) on the bus.used to board from the same bustop as she did in sec sch,but when we go home i alight one stop earlier.when i turned around to say bye to her since im alighting, she was still sleeping!aiya.so was i b4 i woke up.and so i msged her after i got down so that she'll wake up on time to alight at the bustop.

aiya poor girls,poor boys. trying to catch that precious forty winks on the bus.trying to fight for every minute of sleep possible.trying to recuperate fast enough to start studying again when they reach home.study study study.memorise memorise memorise.exam exam exam.forget forget forget.and so the cycle goes.and by the time it ends at forgetx3 we enter society,work work work.wad did we learn in the past err..10+ years?dont know.then why was i so tired?i dont know.in the end i just end up with a load of questions which my brain refuses to answer.

write write write.drip drip drip.flip flip flip.staple staple staple. wad do u get?a stack of wasted precious paper with scribblings and half the pen ink left with absolutely no benefit.when there's no benefit and yet there's high social cost was should we do?BAN!HAHA!the paper could have been put to better use, for pple who need wood to build houses, keep themselves warm, etc.and we use them to write stuff that we wont take another glance again.awww.

tired children of SG unite!sleep tired boy sleep sleep tired boy, sleep tired girl sleep sleep tired girl.yeah.sleep in peace.for there's no such thing as exams.

*snores*

2006-09-25T21:29:00.000+08:00

.+val+. says:
aiya.actually im guillty of not working hard for promos like i did for blocks
`eunice says:
SERIOUS?
`eunice says:
i mug like siao for promos
.+val+. says:
somehow along the way i've really given up.all of a sudden i dont feel the stress
.+val+. says:
YALA.when no one's mugging for that stupid blocks i mug like siao.when everyone's mugging like siao for promos wad the hell am i doing?i dont know.
`eunice says:
hmmm. i think i get what u mean
`eunice says:
its the fatigue.
.+val+. says:
sure i've finished reading a hell lot of things but it's the effort put in for getting everything into your head
.+val+. says:
haha u've got it right.i guess.no im sure
.+val+. says:
im tired of trying to get my As.im tired of working so hard for what?it's just promos.not like i wont get promoted.
.+val+. says:
i need a bloody break to study for A levels.that's the goal.the real goal.
.+val+. says:
if i continue like wad i did for blocks for promos and for blocks 1 and 2 next yr i'll just die 1st
.+val+. says:
so i'll be disappointed for promos.not like i care(oh wait i do) but aiya.i know i need this break la.

and so the convo goes.guess i've finally said out wad's been bugging me.no.eunice said it out.fatique.aiya.i was complaining like siao during blocks alr.guess i really couldnt stand it this time.haha.so yeah.guess what.im stressless now.worryless.maybe a little.exams are..dumb.shouldnt take it so hard.it's just something there for me to get to the next yr.i have an ultimate goal.promos are...nothing.HAHAHAHAHA.

okay maybe im going insane.oh no im not.u can choose to believe or not.im perfectly sane.

oh yes im sane.

jiayou for everyone out there.

i shall drift across this whole ocean.and it'll be over in a breeze.

一滴水

2006-09-24T20:54:00.000+08:00

一滴水
滴进杯子里
是否听见
妈妈的用心？

一滴水
滴在书信上
是否看见
家人的眷恋？

一滴水
滴在花卉中
是否闻着
花的感激？

一滴水
渗透了衣服
是否感受到
一个人的软弱？

(those who cant see this go encoding unicode)

AAAIIIYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
sometimes i dont know why i have so many 滴 of 水 in me.and at times like this they never fail me.nah it's not only bcos of promos.ive given up on it.since it's here i'll accept the fact and just go for it.oh wells.life sucks?perhaps.but then again i wont want a smooth road all the way, bcos life sucks even more that way -- there's no purpose, nothing.

Don't go around saying the world owes you a living; the world owes you nothing; it was here first. -Mark Twain

and so it is.thank God.

blogging again.

2006-09-23T20:06:00.000+08:00

which is like crap.cos i've been telling myself i shouldnt come online anymore till promos are over.but guess wad.i guess i'll still be coming online prob everyday.and prob i stay online the longest everyday too.cos now i dont see anyone online in the afternoon,and i still am all the way till night.pls tell me im not addicted to turning on the comp.i can just on it for nothing,or rather for the very fact that im bored.funnily the nearer it is to promos the more im slacking.or was i already slacking since dont know when.damm.suddenly feel like posting a pic.lemme find a random one...

..aha found one!one of the firework display that day.actually this pic was pretty much accidental.was trying to take a pic of the blue balloon,and just when i press the button the fireworks came out!love it=)it was a really memorable day,and i was really really happy.but all happy things always come to an end.but more happy things always come as well!so be happy!life is an exciting rollercoaster ride,one that takes the breath of out u,and at the end of the day, u'd be satisfied somehow.

bored.

2006-09-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

which explains me doing the following:

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

What Color Green Are You?

emerald green is nice!although i think i'll prefer pale green or erm..this kind of green.oh wells.im i that harmonious?hmm.

promos coming..

2006-09-20T15:13:00.000+08:00

in a grand total of 5 days.realised i've never really count down to promos.maybe i was just hoping and wishing that it wouldnt come yet..or that it'll be over already?oh wells.all i know is that i wont be able to finish studying.and so i shall just do my best.haha,maybe even not my best.cos i do slack.which reminds me of CT session today--stress management with siva.woots. he treated us!hahaha.and we're still thinking of ponning it cos we thought we would get scolded..cos so many pple pon sch.i would too if i could i guess,or maybe i wont.haha.in the end it was just yakking and drinking.asnd he said thank you for all the laughter and jokes u shared with me.woots!hahaha.shant comment on that.

okay.being more lax now i can finally do work!hey being lax doesnt mean slacking ok.it just spares me from the additional mental power of being too stressed.but i shall slack more.i know i'll be disappointed la but cant be helped.hehx)okay.off to do work.

oh wait.got some photos to post.i've got a nice colour gradient-ed water bottle when i poured ribena syrup into my water b4 stirring.think it's so pretty=)

pretty right?=D

and i officially declare that i love happy songs than sad songs.cos they make me happy, although sad songs can be nice too.okay.that's just..random=D

finally admitted.

2006-09-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

yes,i've finally admitted im not superwoman.i've finally broke down.all the time of sticking a "im hangin' on" expression, washed away by a moment of despair and helplessness. im tired.

maybe i'll be better tmr.as a normal girl who finally understands there's a limit to what she can achieve.as a normal girl who finally sees the world with a open attitude.as a normal girl who finally, BE a normal girl.

tagged.again!

2006-09-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

by someone who wanted revenge(just joking).and guess what?it's the same tag just that it has 2 qns instead of 5 now=.=and he did it twice!and now im going to be just as stupid to do it again as well since i said i would the next time i update.ok so here it goes:
The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 4 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.
Gender: male
Pointers:
1. Loves God.
2. Loves and respect me
3. Loves my family
4. Accept me as who i am
5. Understanding
6. Faithful
7. Good tempered
8. Can click
okay i've done it!shant tag anyone la cos i tagged previously already.

anyway i shall not come online unnecessarily till promos is over!and i mean it.starting from tmr.haha.and jiayou all muggers out there(again).

wkend had been..okay la.played my piano for damn long after a long time.feels good.havent really been studying much which is like-.-but i shall work harder!ok nothing much to update la.or rather dont feel like typing too much also.zooming off...

2006-09-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational.You are also giving and kind - a great friend.You are easy going and trusting.However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyoursleepingpositionsayaboutyouquiz/">What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

haha ok im just bored.whether oli wants to go poly or jc somehow isnt very interesting to me.did a couple of others too like stress level(52%, im surprised it's so far from hundred), and happiness level(48%,argh how can i be happy with all the mugs that im trying to hold with my 2 hands)and some other lame ones like your true colour(yellow,woah im so loyal to apollo).

anyway was damn tired after soccer ytd.and the swim test today was pretty easy except for the endurance swim.havent swam for a long time la.and my freestyle is a mad splash at the water with my hands and my legs just wriggling in the water.somehow i survived 4laps of that.and yay we all passed!and after that im so tired!rahh!thank goodness today is damn slack.wished i hadnt come to sch though.at least i can face up to my conscience.the whole day my class was talking abt ponning lessons.in the end we didnt pon any..though some pon math.and they choose today to mark attendance!oh well.somehow we always manage to find ways to help our frens sign and everything.

gosh.okay.shall go spent time investigating why oli chose to go poly.tata!

slacking again.

2006-09-14T20:56:00.000+08:00

muaha.guess wad.i PLAYED SOCCER!ok not my 1st time cos in st nicks u do all kinds of sports,but this time it's different la.more spaced out bcos the guys can play.but i still suck.haha.think throughout the whole time i touched the ball thrice or something.wadeva.aiya not cut out for soccer la of all sports.

anyway aiya suddenly this few days very worried for my bro.i mean he's sec3 already and yet he doesnt care about his studies.or maybe he does but just dont like to study.aiya dont know.i know that most guys are hooked onto the comp at this kind of age, but his is obssession la,too much.i know i should persuade him to use the comp less, but he's like already so distant. Somehow i just dont want to get into his bad books. at least now he shares with me stuff that he doesnt tell my mum so that i know what he's really doing. if i go about sounding like my mum, even if it's just talking to him nicely abt it he'll probably go up in flames, and i dont want it to happen. now i hardly talk to him unless it's obvious that he's in a good mood, and i really treasure those moments la.somehow as we grow older all the bickerings are gone..and the relationship becomes better in a way, but it's just that his temper is quite bad when he plays the comp la.i know that it's wrong to not tell him to use the comp less since he tells me stuff more than to my mum, but i really dont want to ruin this relationship.sometimes no choice accomodate abit lor, not like with my busy schedule or with him in front of the comp the whole time i can talk to him alot, just be nicer and bring food and drinks for him when he plays comp at times, hopefully one day he'll wake up la.he can do it if he wants to!hey im not putting down my bro k..he can be really sweet too, like giving me the pastries he made during home econs(super yummy!)and when he's in a good mood he's nice to talk to la.but i still envy my cranky alot.cranky i really envy u la!your elastic cheek bro is damn cute and super mugger!haha.and u're so close to your brother too.hope u'll never end up like me.haha.

and i want to pon sch badly!!friday is such a crap day.math pe pw with 2 hours break.damn lame.but my mum refused to write letter for me.not that i'll really pon actually,was just seeing her reaction.haha im a super guai student la, never pon class or sch b4.everytime i say so i never do so,bcos it feels wrong la.told u im guai already.heex)aiya.and im slacking.tired from football.1day down the drain.shall just go sleep and jiayou tmr.

2006-09-13T21:34:00.000+08:00

i just want you to know, i've been fighting to let you go.

oh my leisure time!sayonara adiel farewell!boo-hoo.

now jiayou valerie!u know u can do it.

anyway found the 1st line on my fren's msn nick.rakes up sad memories,but my fight is over.i've completely let go of one, no regrets, hope the person has let go too. but the one unknown, somehow i havent really let go.and i dont want to deceive myself.i suck.

ok!no time to think of all this.it's just an msn nick.go study la.jiayou muggers out there.

*shuts comp*

i cut my hair!

2006-09-10T20:19:00.000+08:00

haha oh yes.cut it ytd..hahaha.did i ever mention that cutting hair always makes me feel super elated?it does.makes my head feel lighter, as if it's not so burdened by that extra weight.although i already have very little hair(my frens said my hair's malnourished) but everytime i go cut my hair i can still see lots of hair on the ground.dont know where the hairdresser found that many strands of hair to strip of my head.the hairdresser kept asking me how i want my fringe to be, whether i want my hair to be layered, textured, and goodness knows what,like throughout my whole hair cut?and i dont really know exactly what she meant so i told her what i wanted and what i didnt mind.in the end it turned out to be quite nice la.not really like the initial picture i had in mind though.but oh yes im happy.haha.nice break from all the mugging.(actually i havent mugged much for the past 5 days and im still blogging now!argh.)

sch's reopening tmr.rah.will be happy to see all my frens again but i hate waking up early>.<
thanks to the fact that i live on the other side of the island.so all those living super near sch pls do not complaint to me that u all lack sleep!and for the particular someone who SURVIVES on 12 hours of sleep thanks for niao-ing me(ok i know u didnt mean it that way). but hello 12 hours of sleep is luxury to me that can only be achieved on friday nights and holidays!(anyway this whole darling para of mine was deleted thanks to the arrow for html code for that "face" i made after "early".so it's abit different,guess i was more sacarstic earlier.ok,i still am.)

but actually i'll still be super busy after that because of my church's students fellowship christmas celebration planned and organised solely by us, the SF committee!anyone wants to come?it's on the saturday before christmas(231206) at 5pm(tentative) and there'll be bbq and a super funny skit and games and gift exchange or maybe potluck!and u can get to know more frens!so try to come yeah?haha.and then SF will have to sing for someone's wedding(damn fun!) and there'll also be a church camp at the end of the yr from 11-14 Dec!haha..cant wait for all this to come.my december shall be so packed, but then i shall so enjoy it=)

*back to reality after all the excitement*meanwhile,i shall just slog hard.damn.jiayou to me and to you!

2-in-1

2006-09-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

edit:070906 cranky
since im like blogging everyday i can foresee my archive being full again.so i shall type today's entry in yesterday's.

guess what i did just now!i pleated my mum's hair!hahaha.it's quite nice right?(see below)ok u should know how bored i am now mugging.think im abit mad.hahaha.keep feeling like laughing just like that.

basically i studied bio today.omg dont know why i cant understand how my genes are organised.not that it really mattered to me but rather moe(cos they dunped it into our syllabus). went out with my dad for lunch today.and i couldnt helped shopping with my ~~atm~~ dad just walking beside me.so i bought a new shoe and pencil case and lip balm and a belt(ahh i love it!!but i bought it with my own money).haha.

then at night my dad went ntuc to heave a sack of rice home cos there was little left.being super bored with studying i kindly offered myself to go with him(okay not really that kind cos im out to spent his money again.)bcos i realised tmr im going to have tutorials from 9-3!needed something to snack on.so i bought some snacks--mini oreos!whee..ok sevenfivers u're welcome to attack it.heh.

oops i thought i was going to post a short one.turned out pretty wrong heh.anyway all muggers out there jiayou!

060906:mugging
rahh.guess everyone hates that word now.but yet everyone's doing precisely that.and it's the thing that burns out the oil in me.5days is really the limit.today my engine just died on me.but there's still a long way to the finishing line.dammm.and im sleeping after i post.prob my earliest in 2months?!10pm.haha.

i need another 2wk's leave from sch.why do we still have to go back to sch?we all need our sleep,and the time to study.after promos i shall really play like crazy.i feel crazy now in fact.getting crankier(haha yueqi i dont need your help this time!),and also alot more touchy i think.thankfully i havent done so to anybody.i pity my mum's ear though.kept complaining to her abt the damn heavy syllabus and listening to me drone on and on.thanks mum for being there for me=)haha and actually my bro quite poor thing also.cos now that i have exam im given that little bit better treatment at home.at least my bro has to do the dishes.(oops im slacking.)

ok.determined to keep this post short so that i can catch my beauty sleep.turning into a panda soon.better be a cute one.haha.(okay dont throw eggs at me xD )and wish me good luck that i may have oil in my tank tmr again.heh.

Humility

2006-09-05T14:54:00.000+08:00

Living for decades
In this evergreen place
Missing the magical awakening of Spring
Lush reds and yellows of Autumn
And the white magnificence—
Of dear Winter

Oh how I longed for a miracle!
That one day, this place
Snow would replace Rain
Displaying Flakes intricately designed
A new white world

Twas this longing
That arouses complaints and dissatisfactions
Of poor Rain
Throughout the decades
Living in this evergreen place

Then one day
Tired and despaired
Came Rain
Go away! — but it wouldn’t
I saw millions of fairies
Shaking Cloud gently
Sending showers of blessings to comfort me
Washing the blemishes Man left
The job is done!
Then Rain went away

For once
I finally saw the true Rain
Silently doing her job
Of cleaning the Earth
Only leaving faint traces of herself
To shine forth the beauty of others

Oh such humility!
Never to glorify herself
Unlike Snow
Who hides the beauty of others under its white coat
Only to boast her abilities

So after living for decades
In this evergreen place
Finally forgetting
The magical awakening of Spring
Lush reds and yellows of Autumn
And the white magnificence of dear Winter
Thank God, for giving me Rain.

found this poem that i wrote long ago.quite childish i suppose.but it meant alot to me.even up till now.for humility is one thing i really have to learn.pride comes before a downfall.

language

2006-09-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

the problem with language acting as a barrier to thoughts.-wittgenstein

had this really cool convo with someone.makes me think alot.(okay i realised lots of things makes me think alot.haha.)we were just talking about KI and how i can never take it cos my eng sucks.oh well it really does, but quite a no of pple told me it doesnt.guess it's more like my vocab suck.but i shall work on it.anyway KI is a pretty cool subject but not a very nice subject to take.apparently the rules are concise(omg no crapping!), no flowery languages(thankfully), and be clear in expression.actually i think i prob could do KI, except for 2 things: critical thinking and clarity of expression.haha i have no affinity with flowery languages so that's fine, i dont crap alot so that's fine too, but guess wad i have to be concise and yet write 3000words on a topic!=.=ahhh!!im like dying for gp essay alr.hahaha.

but i think KI is meaningful because language is supposedly a means of communication with people.to express your feelings, your thoughts, for people to actually understand you. so if u choose to use flowery languages not everyone may understand you.if u arent clear in expression people wont understand you either or even misunderstand you.to be concise is not to lose people's attention and to remain focused abt the point you're trying to bring out.that's language.

so why the start of my post?it's true that lang is for expression of thoughts, but it is also a barrier to thoughts.because when u say a phrase about what u're thinking, it may not be interpreted the way you wanted it to be, especially when the other party never heard of the phrase u used before.like..aiya.shall not explain.(even this can mean a different thing to different people.)

anyway in my opinion languages has to come hand in hand with speech.or u can say tone to be more specific.because to see a phrase in black and white, you wouldnt really know how the person is feeling, or how he or she is trying to bring the message across.like hey little girl.even a simple phrase like this conveys a different message when said with a smile, a grin, or a snarl.people sometimes say that i sound super pissed when i blog about certain issues, but i guess if i talked about them instead of typing them out i probably wouldnt sound that pissed.

lastly although one may say that language acts as a barrier to thoughts, there's no such thing as psychic where we can read others' thoughts straight off people's brain anyway.true, actions may say more than words, but language still allows for some form of understanding no matter how limited.yes misunderstandings do arise, what can we do but to wait for a day where we can knock down the language barrier and accurately read one another's thoughts?haha.

oops.did the whole thing sound like a gp essay?it was good practice anyway.but actually it's just to write out my thoughts la.sorry if this makes u puke or think of promos.just treat it like a normal val-is-doing-some-serious-thinking entry like previously yeah?

anyway i was super pissed with a person on the bus today.i was happily sleeping after a tired day on the bus home.then suddenly someone came and sat behind me,and blasted his hp mp3.it was playing qian li zhi wai, so i thought it was some youngster.was damn pissed cos i couldnt sleep, so i plucked out my mp3 and played my own song to block out his.then suddenly i heard his mp3!he turned up the volume la damm him.and guess what it was playing.tian shang ren jian by fei yu qing!i was likeO.o, and i was damn pissed because it's really damn irritating.i turned around to glare at him hoping that he would turn it down.and guess wad?!it was a middle age(should be 50+ )old man!damn shocked.i glared at him for a sec but he did nothing.so i gave up and turned up my mp3 a little.then after awhile i heard drums beats and really rock music!he damn it turned up the volume again!!wahh i was really pissed.think i stared at him quite a few times after that.but in the end i was too tired la so i just slept.pity the guy next to me cos he was sleeping too and didnt have any mp3 to block out that fella's oldie music.aiya, so inconsiderate.it was like almost 10pm and people prob just want a nice rest home after a tired day and there he have to go blasting his music.if he wanted to attract a robber or a thief pls do it more discretely at a more ulu place.no robbers would dare to kidnap your phone in broad daylight(or nightlight if u wish).damn.

ok i think i typed a super duper long post.shucks.im supposed to be studying.dont remind me how close promos are.ja ne!

updates

2006-09-03T17:58:00.000+08:00

haha..i havent blog for a long time cos my aug archive was full.i didnt even know that archives can be full!!oh well.plenty of things have happened but i shant blog much cos i need to mug!!ok alittle of each.it's super random in no chronological order cos im blogging fast and will just write wadeva that comes to my mind.

went mugging for 2 days.somewhat productive.

bbq at soph's church!im so happy so many classmates went=)sam yiwei shue siyun sean ck robert reihorng toon.hope that one day they'll be able to come my church too.

was pretty affected by sat's fellowship sermon.spurred me to think abt all that God gave me, all the gifts.i really want to use them well.

i suck at math.dammm..need to buck up.

i love 75!we just so rocks.

i've been pigging alot.somewhat inevitable during mugging.

shall always rotate the photos in the filmstrip.they can only show the 1st 30photos although i prob have more than a hundred in the strip.shall create one for the class blog too when i have time.for now terry u can kope the html code for our class blog if the class wants it.

everyone jiayou for promos!somehow i feel that im pretty dead but i can see that others are not any better except for the imba ones.

ok..on to math.prob missed out lots of things i wanna blog abt but no time la.shall blog more after promos.ja ne!

dream vs reality
i reached out for your hand,but all i grabbed was air.
i leaned sideways towards you,but all my head found was the cold hard floor.
i finally opened my eyes,but all i saw was your silhoutte floating away.

well if u all read sam's blog you all prob would have known i wrote this long ago.but i couldnt post thanks to my archive thing.anyway it spurred me to think alot.not just abt relationship and stuff.something deeper.

yesterday.all my troubles seems so far away.

2006-08-26T11:43:00.000+08:00

yeah.yesterday was one big slack day.but the bad thing was i was having a mild headache after pe.but i thought i'll be ok after a drink.and i was during bio lect.then during our 2nd one hr break i went to dance with a few of my classmates.and after that the headache became worse.so much so that during econs i couldnt concentrate at all.kept dozing off.then siva caught someone sleeping and said if your grades show that u can make it then i dont mind u slping.then i felt really guilty la cos my grade cant make it also.but he didnt catch me.all the same i couldnt help sleeping la.the headache was really bad.then when class ended i stood up and my head suddenly pounded so badly that i sat down again.i was thinking of whether i should go for guitar if it's better in an hour but apparently it was really bad la.so i didnt go for guitar.but i have one confession to make.i didnt go home after that.i went to yong's house.partly cos my class is going there to swim.and i think if i take the bus i prob couldnt wake up when i reach my house bustop cos i was feeling rather giddy.so i went to his house drinking barley (and my head was pounding all the way),took panadol, and rested for a while.at about 5plus i was feeling better already.and my class was watching a movie.er the 2nd one actually.cos at 1st they were watching 50 1st dates.then they watched brotherhood for a while b4 switching to moulin rouge.quite a nice movie.but i didnt watch the 2nd disc cos i went outside to the swimming pool to slack(it was such a nice weather!). sorry for not going back to guitar.it was 5 plus alr.by the time i reach sch it'll be near 6?yeah.and i havent slacked so much for a long long time!thanks to WR.yeah.then we ordered pizza.then we just sat down there and talked and slacked.cos there was nothing nice on tv.and the guys.hmph.all hide in yong's room and do goodness knows what.SUPER suspicious.cos when the girls enter they go like ehh then got all the hush up actions etc.then when eunice walked with them home someone said eh shh eunice is behind.wad's up all your sleeves.hahaha dont tell me u all are watching......hahahahaha.

oh well.so i enjoyed myself sleeping and slacking.hence my title.but the day b4 was hell trying to rush out the WR.and so is today bad cos mon there's econs timed assignment and chem test.sighh.ok back to studying.

totally in a cranky mood.

2006-08-24T20:59:00.000+08:00

i just did this thingy that sam sent me.this are the results:(encoding unicode i think)
yueqi 是最关心你的人，而 samantha是最了解你的人，你们两个在一起会彼此有知己的感觉。 eunice 是你的幸运星，也许会给你带来好运气的哦~!~!~!
love, me 这首歌最能代表你现在的想法。 fly away 这首歌代表你对生活的感受。把本页推荐给你的 32 个朋友，你的愿望就会实现，信不信由你！

haha yueqi i didnt know u care for me that much!!hahaha.and eunice i need more luck for my promos!!oh man.ok im lame.

anyway WR is finally over so i shall blog a longer entry.

today i was half dead for the 1st half of lessons.but somehow i became cranky and crapped alot with yueqi(oh man yueqi i really do become cranky when i sit beside you hmph.) during econs, which explains why siva keeps saying valerie are u with us?i was nearly caught offhanded for the hp qn.hahaha.crapped up something on the spot.and somehow im quite immune to siva's scoldings.guess what he scolded us "shit man" again.somehow i didnt feel pissed, but it's really like wadeva.and he said dont use my lesson to go toilet if u need to go go during chem!hmph.why can we go during other lessons except his.selfish person.aiya i found it damn amusing.somehow i see his scolding in a diff light now.it's really amusing la.not very nice though.

and for pe we(4 girls) played bball with the guys.they were damn nice la.let us shoot and stuff.i can dribble the ball across the court walking without being blocked by anyone(er mind you my dribbling sucks and the ball mostly end up being hit by my knee and goes bouncing off by itself to the other end of the court).and they keep passing to us to let us shoot(even though i missed the basket super lot of times)haha.it's was a slackish game but pretty fun i guess.hmph.shall learn how to dribble properly someday.

and after pe we stayed at the classbench to talk--9 of us.then we walked out together!for once.normally the guys will just go off 1st.haha.then shueli reihorng and me took 74.at 1st we said we wanted to sleep, so we took separate seats,but we ended up talking.and when shueli alighted, we said we should sleep and in the end we continued talking.when i reached my bustop cos i was talking about something halfway i said i'll alight at the next stop.and i nva did so.cos i could alight at a much later bustop.and guess wad.at the much later bustop i didnt alight either(oh man i can really yak) bcos there was a whole stretch of road which my 2nd bus goes as well.in the end i alighted at almost the last bustop of the whole stretch.bcos rehorng was sitting behind me my meck ached like mad when i got down the bus.hahaha.then i waited.and waited.and waited.1 74 passed.2. then 3 more came.consecutively.6.7.then finally 88 came.wth?!?! 7 74s b4 my bus came!!that's freakin' long!i must have missed it.the bus was damn crowded la.

and my mum is super nice!thanks mum!hahaha.she cooked those herbal chicken soup for me cos she say i look damn tired everyday then like got alot of tests.haha.it was dammmmmmm niccccceeeee!!!and i slacked all the way till now la.oh wells shall do work later.supposed to sleep earlier today but i doubt i will.haha

tmr we're going yong's house to swim!whee!then after that i shall go for cca then after cca i shall rush off and join my class for dinner!!yay class bonding!

ok i should start doing work!!

random:
-my right eye keeps twitching.for 3 or 4 days alr.
-i dont regret my decision.im sure i did the right thing after talking to so many people.thanks everyone!i feel neutral about it now.i was a foolish girl.who had to learn it the hard way.and ive learnt it.fast.but time will heal.and it's time for me to move forward.
-yueqi makes me cranky.
-wait, im cranky without her too, just not so hiong.
-she claims she's a catalyst to the reaction that makes me cranky.zhuting said she's the stimulator.(doesnt sound so reaction kind of thing)
-our WR word count exceed a good 0.01x10^6 words.
-im going mad with the amount of tuts i forsake for pw.
-PW rocks because our project rocks!
-the straits times has to have more creativity than koping our project title for their article title featured in animation special in Life!.(note: it's Not the other way round)
-whee im off if not i'll be dead trying to complete the tuts.
-last one:im going to get a new shoe without paying for it.(i'd better not have to do so!)

joker.dumba**.

2006-08-16T17:51:00.000+08:00

well here it goes: if someone's a the head of a class(ie CT) and he calls his class S.H.I.T, then wad is he?

ahem.shithead.MUAHAHA.nice one from someone whom i shall not reveal to protect the person.and guess what.today just bcos math lecture ended late.we ended up being late for CT.and got scold like mad by the CT.who again refused to listen to our explanation.and CALLED US S.H.I.T.oh yes,right in our face.haha somehow im pretty immune to his scolding alr.pissed yes, but angry aiyah.and the shithead thing just made me feel all the more better.wah how i wished i recorded the part where he scolded us S.H.I.T.that would be great for our appeal for a change in CT for j2.apparently i heard from my fren that we dont change ct in j2 unless the ct hates us or we hate the ct.i think it's true both ways.but whether he'll be thickskin enough to stay and be our ct i dont know.but anyway we're determined to get a change in ct.and we will appeal to the EC.heard that's how we can dump him.

anyway thank goodness i didnt blog abt him ytd cos he was suddenly very nice ytd.not that i ahve anything nice to say about that, bcos he just suddenly realised that it's not his class that did badly only but the whole cohort rather.that's why he suddenly was ok to us.well that sure was shortlived enough.it was just really bad today.again.and i never hear a teacher call his class, esp form class S.H.I.T.hmm next time when he gets into an angry mood i make sure i record everything down.that'll sure be good evidence along the way.and hopefully dump him further away then we could expect.as in we wont see him anymore next yr.whee.may our dream come true all the classes that he teaches.

someone's pms-ing.again.

2006-08-14T17:14:00.000+08:00

well guess what im supposed to be studying for bio spa now but i cant help blogging abt this.will make it a fast one so not much sarcasm although u bet i could have done so.

well his attitude completely changed after blocks and today's the worst ever.like wth.no doubt it's bcos his dear CT class's econs results suck like nobody's business.not even a single A.and also bcos of latecoming and stuff.oh well there are plenty of stuff for him to despise our class.and he did exactly that.today was THE LIMIT.wth.scolded us for not taking down wadeva his saying(hello like wad he says are encouraging words or useful sentences!)and he repeats himself a dozen times.u dont write down repeated stuff do u?cos he repeated so i didnt take down.and he started going about WHY ARENT YOU TAKING DOWN WHAT IM SAYING?hello.im taking down wadeva little useful stuff u're saying alr.and wad the.i bet even mr pang allows a certain amount of talking in his class.how can anyone just sit down there and listen to what a teacher say and not asking someone when he dont understand?esp when the person talking is SO clear. he was like i dont understand you know u are all in HC for half a year already and u all still dont know how to keep quiet when someone's talking.u want mr pang to sit in?!and yadayada(he got more and more agitated).finally he couldnt take it or wadsoever and said the next person who talks will go out of the class.then cos terry was asking simon about some WR stuff he said terry u want to be the 1st one out of the classroom?dont laugh u know this is not funny.then he started scolding yong for talking when he was also just clarifying some pw stuff.when yong tried to explain i guess he didnt accept his explanation.he's a dumbass.in the end the whole class was silent--not bcos we respect him dumbs*** but bcos everyone is in such a foul mood.

and my goodness his words are just so encouraging.see the work u all handed in.it is apparent u all DID NOT put in effort in your work.and oh my goodness u all dont even have the vocab to write your WR.all sec2 and 3 standard.all the proposals were not well thought of.some of u think that camps are sufficient u know.u all must be more innovative.are you all taking down wad im saying? ok after this long chunk of stuff wad would u take down man.and about the putting in effort hello how great a standard does he expect our work to be when he gave us only a pathetic 2 days to do the whole WR?and we did put in painstaking effort to complete the work in 2 days when the WR lecture said we should take 2 weeks.now he wants our 2nd draft in one wk.great.just when all our lecture test are bogging up all our time.everyone's squeezing out that pathetic bit of time left to do pw.sighh i think im going to start my non-stop pw-ing again soon=/ oh and guess wad's the blatant lie he told us?u all still want extension for your WR deadline when others had already done many drafts?!WTH!?!?!all the classes already said how crazy it was for us to hand in our 1st draft so early.as it is we so do not have time to do wad he wants.

and when he went through the WR with some groups i heard him say very insulting things.keep saying we're handing in sec sch standard stuff.hello, if he's that pro show us how a doctor should write.oh i forgot doctors words are illegible so yeah even if he can write we wouldnt know would we?such a pity.

and what a joke!he marked reihorng's group WR twice cos they handed in 2 copies by accident.and he didnt realise and marked both.but when the 1st has a tick the other has a cross and vice versa.that shows how sure he is of his marking man lol!but as it is he really pissed all of us to the limit.it's extreme.i cant really express how the whole ordeal was like staring at him for an hour.but it was much worse then any other time i described.guess it's impossible to keep it short.he's way the limit.who have we to blame for our poor results but him?he seemed to come to the conclusion that it's bcos we're slackers and dont study, but why not look at himself 1st?haiz he just "rocks" 75 man.

u know how parents sometimes say that it's up to us to work hard even if our teacher is not good, but i think all the complaints that reached our parents' ears influenced the change in opinion.i think quite alot of parents would probably be quite disgusted already.and poor us who see him 5 days a wk.bleah.

Teach me how to erase the pain.

2006-08-12T11:25:00.000+08:00

my friend's personal msg says: when your eyes no longer see and your sense no longer works, that's when faith steps in.his nick is the title of this post.

in this world, our eyes and our senses are so unreliable.how many times do we hear people say:looks are deceiving.kind words may turn out to be words of venom.many a time we tried to insist, and convince ourselves that our eyes and senses are still working.you still want to trust your instincts and force yourself to come up with a solution based on your eyes and senses.

we humans are lost in the world.helpless.hopeless.until He came.there was light at the end of the tunnel.glorious light.the tunnel of life is long.it's only when we see the end.and everything will be okay.but sometimes we just dont see it.we rather wonder in the dark, hoping to find our way through the tunnel without a light source.we stubborn creatures!in the end, we suffer, we feel pain.but there's an upper being,who would could erase the suffering,the pain, only if we have faith in him.when one have faith in him,we have a small candle.pass it on.there are many people who need this light.pass it on.it's the light of hope,salvation, and life.pass it on.dont hide the candle.let it shine on the moutain for the whole world.pass it on.

2006-08-10T14:55:00.000+08:00

Stop it!it's not fun anymore.i dont feel anything.my brain's not working.i want it to end.i want to be okay.

sweet seventeen

2006-08-08T17:48:00.000+08:00

thanks everyone who made my 17th birthday a really sweet one.
my dear sis sam.
eunice yueqi yiwei shueli siyun sophia yu ting ying chern kityeng claire zhuting cai yun yeen seen jane xue jiao xiao qi yu zhu emily(my birthday twin!) 05s75.
annette an qing zara esther si xuan my dear junior sarah.
wanting shufen leck qi leck hui grace jaslyn ting ying hui wen my dear cousin jie.
toon chris reiz ck robert tengen yushu ivan nicholas sean(tan) simon terry lek chia sean(lim) shaokai wengwoh dion tian cheng jasper solomon john.
my family.my grandparents.

ok im done with my thanking.being 1yr older u know my memory's failing me!so if i missed out your name pardon me!you all are such dear pple..i feel like everyone's is pampering me.hahaha.whee.such a nice birthday.thank God for all of you!haha i feel so blest.will keep all the presents nicely and all the letters and cards too!love those=)thanks for all your effort.muaha i sound like im writing a thank you speech but im really thankful!

i wanna shine like a star for everyone out there.

trust in the Lord

2006-08-07T20:50:00.000+08:00

someone asked me wad he/she should do..to continue with something..or to forget about it.i suddenly felt very inspired by my own experience.and i gave him/her such a reponse:

i cant decide for you.you see right u can never know how someone is feeling about the relationship no matter how good your intuition is.sometimes because you dont understand the full situation you give the wrong advice.and i dont want to give you a wrong advice.ask your heart.ask God.really.

somehow i just felt that i said the right thing.not that it's a politically correct answer or wadsoever..but i really felt that way.how much do you know about the whole situation even though the person open his/her heart to you..tell u all that's bothering him/her..a wrong advice brings hurt.regret.sorrow.i dont want to be a bringer of all these.only God can.God will lead your way when there seems to be no way.He works in ways we cannot see.and He will lead your way.

God has He own time for everything.some things just cant be rushed.talk to Him;pray to him -- He will guide you.you may not know wad to do straight away.but you will know when time comes.just try!try asking Him for help, humble yourself before Him.He will help you.although sometimes it may be against our own will.

Words are so easy to say.persuasive words may just flow out of your mouth..and be a large comfort to someone.but how much can you actually do what you had persuaded the person to do when you're in his/her shoes?trust in the Lord.yeah that's so easy to say.difficult to follow.how much do we trust in the Lord?how much can we persuade ourselves that wad he does is really for a reason.how can we love him more when there are trials and temptations?how can we let go of our burdens, and place our lives in his hands?how?how?not that i dont know.it's just to do wad the sentences mean.but my mind refuse to obey.my body..my heart..my soul -- they rebel. but when we are really able to trust in Him, we feel peace.comfort.joy. He alone gives us all these.

God has sent me an angel.a dear sis..who shared with me her wings when mine was torn.who carried me on her back to fly when i had no strength.to share her joy with me when im sad.Thank you Lord.

awaiting

2006-08-07T19:21:00.000+08:00

waiting for that special moment..a new start..a new beginning.

a time to think hard.what's next?

sweet seventeen.

awaiting.

im so happy!

2006-08-06T21:41:00.000+08:00

yay everyone's so nice to me!1st i had a nice dinner at swensens yesterday with my family to celebrate my birthday=)then my mum bought a mango cake for me after that also for my birthday=)then today my church fren gave me a cute little bear the 1st thing i step into church=)and then another fren gave me this cute lil candy dispensing machine.damn cute!=)and then a whole group of girls bought me this super huggable sheep that can be unfolded into a mat also!!=)damn nice to huggg!!haha so now im damn happy!=)and then besides receiving presents im making some also!!even happier!!=)ok today's a happy day!=)and so will be tmr..the day after..and the day after=)whee!!!i cant think of thurs cos it's not a very nice day cos i have to start..u know wad.=.=okay!!shant think about it 1st cos now im very happy!!=)haha okayy im sure u get it by the amount of smiley faces=)=)=)=)=)=)

Uncontrollable

2006-08-05T20:40:00.000+08:00

I dont know why
But tears glistened in my eyes
When she said goodbye.
That feeling of sadness is overwhelming'
The Lord giveth, the Lord took away
4weeks -- i was so glad
now, my emotions are uncontrollable
i just teared, and teared and teared.

She was a comfort
When all our class had was
everchanging teachers
except for that * * CT.
She was sad too
yet she gave us smarties,
"With smarties, you'll get all the answers",
but why does my heart tell me otherwise?

I want my teachers,
Why are nice ones coming and leaving?

Bah..i feel so sad.having a weird mood swing or something.i was super sad ytd when she said she was leaving.yet i was very happy during swimming.then i felt sad again during math lecture.and sort of happy again in guitar.and i didnt understand why i was that sad when she said she was leaving.now i think i really have some weird mood swing.because it's the same for today.i was damn happy during cip in the morning.and was super happy until at night because my family went to celebrate my birthday.but after that i was like telling my mum about our class and changing teachers and stuff.then i started crying.i dont know why i feel like crying so much.i wouldnt cry for such stuff last time.haha but im ok now.yup dont worry for all who's reading this post.i just need to cry abit and i'll be ok.dont know why i feel like crying so much suddenly x/

anyway cip was damn fun.we went from ward to ward to perform a few songs and interact with the old folks.although i didnt really talk to the old folks but i feel very happy to play guitar and sing for them.and also to SMILE at them.they're a nice group of people.im sure everyone enjoyed themselves except for those who think they're going there to do "sai kang"(s*** work or something like free labour).this is so much more meaningful then the one that's coming on my bdae, which is just a 30min performance straight with some interactions with the old folks.i guess im really glad to have this experience.yup so thanks siyun for asking!and thanks to all the interact people in group 1 who helped to sing: yen jeong(oops i dont know if i spelled correctly) yirene yong sheng ming wei.and thanks to all those who agreed to go for this cip in guitar!: Jane Shao Kai Wee Chern Alvin Eng Aik.And also the CO people who played their beatifully sad songs.sorry i didnt mean to be insulting.just that it really sounded sooooo sad.but it was really great playing=)yup and thanks to the rest of the interact people also and brandon the project director!haha yeah it was really really fun.ooh and thanks to C..oops i forgot the volunteer's name.hahaxD but you're a really nice person and thanks alot for guiding us along.yup.

-churning on the inside.uncontrollable.-

"avis" "rocks"

2006-08-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

totally pissed with "avis" today.he makes me feel damn racist.just heard a joke today: wad's the diff btwn avis and a bucket of shit? ans: the bucket.
another one: how does avis communicate with us? ans: infra red.

no wonder everytime we have his lessons it always gets very heated up.with all the heat he's radiating.unfortunately for him we do not have infra red.no wonder nobody understands him.neither does he understand us anyway.wad's with alignment?have to align the margins of everything we submit for PW..align our tables at the aisle(like he cant squeeze through uneven aisles..or wait..maybe he really cant with that belly)..like hello?how come with all the neatness he demands i dont see any supplied by him?his handwriting is just soooo legible.it's like super aligned..with a crooked line.wth?!bah.and with his belly size i understand he's an expert in controlling his bladder but unfortunately most of us do not possess that super ability.wad's with scared that we wont return after we request to go toilet?have no confidence in your lesson?well i would say that u shouldnt have but then again ur dear class so isnt that irresponsible.we really NEED the toilet after sitting in that classroom for 1hr alr.why cant u just let us go?and somehow u dont understand the ratio of having 2cubicles and abt 8 girls needing the toilet.and to think u topped math.that's just another one of your believable tales.bah. poor soph.she's guilty..i should too..but somehow this kind of feelings are so not controllable.but ok i shall stop here.cant wait to petition.and guess what my parents just received my results slip.guess what he wrote.could have done better.walao.with this kind of teacher how to do better?*smack him*

2006-08-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

perhaps it's just wrong for me to say it out.i just wanna sit there and stare at you.i dont want a conversation.it's more comfortable that way.my feelings are blocked from me.we were happier when we didnt know than when we did.but time cannot turn back.moving on is the only option.and i will look forward..nva forgetting the happy times ever.thank you.i still want u to be happy.difficult..but i really wish so.

stitches.pain.lol.

2006-07-30T19:00:00.000+08:00

gee..just knew that my brother banged his head hard on something while soccering..have to stitch up the wound..gosh..im quite worried for him..dont know how bad it is..but on the other hand i find it so amusing..banged his head against wad?the goal post?tried to do a bicycle kick and landed his head on a hard patch of mud or wad?or banged his head against another person?lol..oops im sadist..but not exactly..i just dont get it how he injured himself that badly until it requires stitches.ok.at least he's fine.brr..i'll nva want to have to stitch up my skin in my entire life.im super scared of pain!!ok now u all can be sadist and niao me back.xD

2006-07-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

It's when you care about someone and you hope they're happy,
but you're not under any illusions about them.

Saw this on miss ho's msn personal msg. makes me think. haha. couldnt help blogging this. sometimes when u care about someone, it's just not easy not to be under any illusions about them. i wonder.

anyway i have lots to flame at siva. it'a going to be a super violent and vulgar entry if i ever bother to type everything out. just couldnt stand the way he humiliates all those who didnt do well. like who doesnt want to do well?like the best ones wont automatically teach the weaker ones u dumb ass. if u really want a segregated class with excellent results as your CT class u're most welcomed to do so. if that's your definition of a model class im sure none of us would have it in our dictionary. and thanks for cutting pple off b4 they can make their full point and then asking them why they didnt present on that portion. and if u happen to have amnesia or alzhemier disease and a super short term memory of less than a min i suggest u go see a doctor instead of asking me to repeat my survey aims a thousand times a pw session. im sure u are pissed with us, a tit for tat then. and pls stop using the idiotic trick that someone vip will sit in our lessons. they sure dont work after u spammed your classes with them. im pretty sure that u know the reasons for tricking us, unfortunately we're not going to be that stupid anymore. instead im very sure most of us will delight in arriving for your lesson even later. i mean, your lessons are just soo inviting that nothing can motivate us to go for it except for your graced presence. im pretty sure u'll be happy to hear that. ok im stopping here but u bet i have lots more to say than this with vulgarities censored off the original. and i hope that u have the intelligence to read our blogs to find out how the demand curve for a lesson with u looks. the supply curve may be vertical, it may be a monopoly for all the crap we get during your lesson, but im sure the qty demanded will be so that your "film" is earning subnormal profits and has to shut down because it doesnt even cover the average variable cost of the water u need to replenish your saliva everytime u start talking rubbish. oh wait. i dont think it'll cover the fixed cost of your travel time and time spent with your dear classes because u sure aint gonna get high returns out of us with your kind of teaching standard. and why aint i surprised not to even see the demand curve when i tried plotting it?aww u pathetic creature, a despised monopoly. sadded.

My hole.

2006-07-27T18:57:00.000+08:00

i've done wrong. i've done someone injustice. i've deceived myself. and deceived others. i've built my happiness on something that would be of misery to others in the future. i want things to be as it is now. yet not really like now either. i cant move. nor forward. nor backward. im stuck. very stressed. im happy. but sad at the same time too. i've stepped into a hole i shouldnt even THINK of stepping into. wad an experience. and i cant get out of it forever bcos it'll affect others. whether i come out now or later. all i know that i shouldnt dig the hole any deeper. but i cant start filling the hole for me to get out of it either bcos someone will get buried in it. i dont know. im a confused fella now. i dont even know how deep is the hole i stepped into. but it's definitely not that shallow. i shant move now. i hope nothing happens. not an earthquake. not a life saving team sent to rescue me. not just anybody. there's only 1 escape route to this, the safest and most secured rope ever. let down by the person who dropped me into the hole in the 1st place. but in the process, the person is going to get injured as well. and i dont want that to happen either. so im staying put. let everything just let me be.

ashamed of jesus

2006-07-25T20:30:00.000+08:00

Jesus, and shall it ever be,
A mortal man ashamed of Thee?
Ashamed of Thee, whom angels praise,
Whose glories shine through endless days?

Ashamed of Jesus!sooner far
Let evening blush to own a star;
He sheds the beams of light divine
O'er this benighted soul of mine.

Ashmed of Jesus! that dear Friend
On whom my hopes of heaven depend!
No; when i blush, be this my shame,
That I no more revere his name.

Ashamed of Jesus! yes, I may,
When I've no guilt to wash away;
No tear to wipe, no good to crave,
No fears to quell, no soul to save.

Till then, nor is my boasting vain,
Till then I boast a Saviour slain;
And O, may this my glory be,
That Christ is not ashamed of me!
-Joseph Grigg

May i never be ashamed of Jesus.

Touched by an angel

2006-07-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

All the small things,
this angel of mine gave me.
The little gestures,
the laughters.
i hold them in my heart.

This angel of mine,
when im sad,
makes me happy unknowingly.
always teasing me,
yet giving in to me.

This angel of mine,
simply floats around me at times,
hoping that one day i would notice.
And so happen that on that one day,
i was touched by this angel.

fantasy.

2006-07-22T20:09:00.000+08:00

Found this on my mei's blog.somehow i feel the same too.

those little gestures when isolated dont mean a thing.it's accumulative.piece them together and i see something.maybe all these dont mean anything.but i want it to work out.if you like a person,shouldnt you just spit it all out?in case u regret..which u'd probably will.but it's so hard..and i have always held the belief guys shld do it.i wont ever tell a person that i like him.i'll just keep it to myself (or tell a close friend)maybe i'll drop subtle hints - that's the furthest.if the feeling is mutual,i'll die of elation (i think.)self-delusion may seem stupid.it isnt.everyone needs a little fantasy in their lives.it gives that false but warm sensation of hope that can bring a smile on a rainy day.-impossible reality.dreamlike fantasy.-coincidence.i wish u'd feel the same way.i wish...what are the odds?

everyone needs love no matter how strong u are.i believe strongly in that.

swimming and guitar!

2006-07-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

had swimming today.it's fun!just that we girls made quite a big fuss abt our fats.haha.but my arms really ached after swimming.i havent had a proper swim for a damn long time!now it's pretty ok.hopefully it wont be aching tmr..

guitar was as usual.most pple can play fairly well now which im glad.i suppose i could do more.somehow the feeling's different from being an SL in string orch.really want to do my best.hmm must be more approachable.and reach out to guys also.cant always just tend to girls.had spring cleaning after prac, the guitar room has a thousand and one things although it's not very big!gosh..but it was nice wiping the cardboards and seeing everything sparkle cos we found detergent!haha..and oh man there are lots of junk food and bottled drinks, but most are either expired or on the verge.haha.and guess what.we found the guitar badge!!haha, the exco is like wearing them next wed, and rc doesnt have it!wait does sean have also or did he leave b4 that.but anw quite honoured to be wearing the badge, even though the rest of the ensemble will prob get theirs some time later.

lala.ok i need to go slp alr.full day of leap tmr><

2006-07-20T17:21:00.000+08:00

whee.im finally blogging again.feels like i havent blogged for ages.and why is that so?thanks to the freakin pw, the most pissifying work on earth.we are being made used of, doing free labour for a pathetic grade and for a better future as it is for the govt.wow.pw is like an adjective to us, a verb that nva fails to haunt us.when u see classmates putting busy as their status on msn, the 1st thing u'll say is: "pw-ing?".and that's like DUH.i've been pw-ing for almost 2 wks non stop, so has the rest of us thanks to an equally freakin pw teacher.

ok.enough of pw.feel sick whenever i see that word.i must say all the hardwork paid off.at least we arent behind time thankfully.anyway, finally got back all my blocs results.hmmmmmm...im happy la, bcccc is ok.just that all my Cs are damn gek(er..how do u explain this word..like when u go "aiya" that kind of thing).they are damn close to B.all of them.grr.nvm.im thankful i didnt get any smiley faces.all abt average la.so yay!im happy.the gek part, i shall get over it=)
and yeah, just wanna say all those who didnt do very well, there's still time!dont give up!always ask if u are unclear abt anything.and jiayou!gambatte!

anyway,talked to sam for quite long today.it was a nice talk.infatuations.hmm.lol.fantasizing.self indulgence,self deceiving.i believe everyone believes in that.it's nice and makes u happy once in a while.but amongst the sweetness of fantasizing we must not fail to acknowledge reality.bcos it still exist, whether we want it or not.

ok, pretty much done with blogging.guess wad im going to do next?no prize for guessing correctly T_T

Love.

2006-07-15T19:58:00.000+08:00

One woman went to a bridal boutique and asked the shop keeper:"can you please make me a dress of the coarsest material as possible?"

the shop keeper replied:"but your wedding day should be the greatest day of your life!most women would want the finest and nicest material as possible."

W:"yes it's my greatest day, but it is also my husband's greatest day and i want him to remember it as well.he's blind.i want him to know that im walking towards him, and that he can hold my hand when i stand beside him.with a gown of coarse material, he would be able to hear the gown sweep the floor and know that im coming.im okay with the gown, i want him to be happy."

that's such great love.

2006-07-15T00:08:00.000+08:00

im not those who makes friends easily.but once i do u have my trust.and u become my really good friends.this could do in sec sch.not now.

i need to stop it.or else i die.and hurt others.

stoopid CT

2006-07-11T20:01:00.000+08:00

damn irritated.for PW(u should know the CT is la dont even want to see his name, he teaches my class econs pw and ct sessions which eventually turns out to be pw always).he super irritating!like pms-ing.he was super pissed for the whole class.i tell u!it's the same in the reverse.seeing him for 5 days a wk is seriously the limit.he spoils my mood everyday.was so irritated with him for PW ytd.he went around asking the groups for their survey findings.i was so thankful i wrote down like that morning the answers obtained from our open-ended.when he asked our group for the survey i wanted to say i didnt bring the original copy but i have a summarised version.BUT when he heard that me say i didnt bring he didnt even let me finish my sentence and said dont tell me u didnt bring and he moved on to the next group.like WTH!i just shouted at him, caught his attention and finished my sentence quickly b4 he could say anything.and he was like ok.fine.then bcos no other groups did he asked my group to present our findings.so we went up and presented.pretty detailedly actually.and wad did he do.pick on our surveys.from the start to the end.hello at least i did my survey and bothered to collate the results.and i repeated a bloody(sry for the lang) 5 TIMES(or more?) the aims and objectives of my group's survey and even told him how we classified our questions according to the aims!everything was damn systematic.then finally he decided to move on with the criticising of the surveys and criticised our method of finding pple to do survey.ok fine i admit that asking our friends to do aint very random, but isnt street survey pretty fine already?and not like we did all the surveys at one area so that we can get a variety of views.argh!really damn irritated.i really felt like rolling my eyes a thousand times throughout the whole lesson.my goodness.now we have to continue surveying more pple bcos we have to change our method of surveying.thankfully the collected results can still be used if not i'll definitely slaughter him.but i suppose i havent got the worse of him.i havent found anyone who wasnt pissed with him ytd.and he did say some very mean things to some groups.abt econs.that's dumb.he nva knew wad subject the period was allocated to.damn suay to have him as our teacher.sick.oh well..he did freak out most of the groups though(or maybe it just wasnt him).at least today after sch the benches outside the fishtank were all occupied by the PW groups to discuss pw!HAHA.i suppose we still have to meet his expectations must as we dont feel like it.okay.shant talk about him anymore.he really spoils my mood.but after blogging i do feel much better.haha. ja ne!

movie finally!

2006-07-07T19:03:00.000+08:00

oh man i havent watched any movie since v for vendetta and that's super long!so many nice movies came out during the hols but there was blocks and seomhow i couldnt find pple to go with me when i want to.from MI3 all the way to Cars i didnt watch ANY.that's like so sad.haha.so today i watched she's the man with shue yiwei sam and eunice.it's like damn nice and super funny!hahaha.it actually follows the storyline of twelfth night and it's damn cool!the characters retain their names as well..so reminds me of lit.all of us were like talking abt lit b4 the movie..like weird.haha.but shakespeares works are nice la.

oh ya!b4 we went to watch the movie we had an encounter with a super rude guy.wth!it's like the lift was super packed and we went in last,so when pple wanted to exit we were like blocking the way but couldnt really like move aside that quickly.and this group of girls who were standing right inside wanted to get out.just when we were trying to find space to move aside this stupid guy shouted from behind me "EXCUSE ME!" for the girls.i jumped la.hello,not like we're not trying to move aside.we were already moving!then the whole lift was like sniggering.stoopid guy.make me feel like rolling my eyes.and he was really loud lor.so super rude.damn.but all of us realised we couldnt really rmb how he looked like after we finish watching the movie thank goodness.he really spoils my mood if i rmb how he looks like.not worth wasting my brain space for this kind of thing.

wad you told me when i was a guy made me love you more as a girl.took this from the movie.thought it was a very sweet line.made me think of some stuff.haha im like on thinking mode this few days.just want to think through alot of stuff.yeah.and looking back a lil makes me really think and feel for certain stuff.oh wells.by next wk lessons will really start and i wont have time to think so much already anyway.sometimes it's just nice to think about stuff now that we have nothing much to do.yupp=)

reflections

2006-07-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

i was just thinking about my character and personality etc.i wonder what others think about me but that's not very important actually.i just want to be true to myself i guess.

i wanted to have a new start in jc.i mean there's always the question of wad everyone wants out of jc.it's like a phrase,where everyone grows up and learn how to be young adults,to think maturely and trying to find our true selves etc. i was super glad im in a really nice class where i can start anew.i wanted to be a lil louder,a lil more enthu,a lil more bubbly.i was for the start.then i sort of return back to my quiet self.as in,i dont really want to be that loud.it's not me i guess.i can be pretty talkative when i have stuff to say,if not then i'll just listen.i like to listen,most of the time i dont talk much,so im not much of a conversationalist.but my ear is always there for pple who are upset.

and i realised im quite a serious person with a pretty high expectation.as in if i know you very well u may sometimes see the super cranky and childish side of me,but most of the time im serious.as in pple dont really go cranky talking to me.prefer to talk abt more serious stuff and not crap all the time i guess.

and my high expectation!im in despair over it.dont know if it's a good or bad thing at times.it sure is a good motivating source but it's more for myself.as in i dont compete with others.i dont see the point of competing la.it's dumb and causes animosity.hurts relationships.i dont mind pple asking abt my marks la actually but i wont go asking pple their marks unless u want to tell me.and i have high expectation for not only exams but sch work too.as in i've always felt that if you wanna do something why not give it your best?for pw..since we're supposed to do it,why not do it properly and not leave it to rot?actually is it really my expectation?not really.i was pretty tolerant already i thought.i havent said anything abt hurry and meeting deadlines.but i guess i cant stand it anymore.i am so going to do something soon.that's just me la.i cant see my group just die like that.it's on the verge of dying.i will do something soon.hmm yeah.so much for high expectations.i dont wanna impose it on anyonw else.it's strictly for myself.

responsibility.yeah it's very much my driving force at times.i think i did post on this long time ago.as in i feel that it's my responsibility to be consistent and study hard for my parents(but they always say in the end it's for myself).it's my responsibility to tidy the class fund and keep the accounts properly(which i have failed all of you it's just so messy=/).it's my responsibility to chase after all of you sevenfivers the money as well!(pls dont make that difficult for me)it's also partly my responsibility to see that my pw group dont go down the drain even though im not the leader.and it's my responsibility to ensure that guitar club members can play the pieces correctly with all the fingerings and stuff and understand the piece even if they may be pro-er in guitar playing then i am.

i know i can be quite impatient at times and even insensitive at times.really sorry abt that.something i've been trying to work on for quite long.always been a bad habit..especially impatience.yeah so pardon me when i get all worked up.and when i get into one of my grumpy or just dont feel like doing anything mood i'll just be like super quiet.then pple will start asking am i ok.im..ok la.haha.just dont feel like talking.yup.

haha yeah.see im really a serious person.haix.but sometimes i just like to think abt this kind of thing.yeah reflections.i think alot and talk alot less.hm.thinking is good.haha.

sorry.

2006-07-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

yeah.sorry for my grumpy mood today.lots of factors affecting it i guess.1st is that im still sick.2nd pple aint paying me money.3rd im tired.4th another reason.5th 2 boring teachers.yeah.so i aint particularly in a good mood today.but i was happy that pple loved the gingerbreadman and the cookies=)we really spent ALOT of time baking everything and wrapping them.haha.and yeah i was in a better mood after sch.only realised i was grumpy(and showed it all on my face) when eunice pointed it out.thanks eunice!yeah..so i managed to get into a better mood.afterall guitar was pretty slack.guess i really love my post.reminded me of my SL days in string orch.and pple do listen to me finally unlike those who already know how to play.enjoyed teaching them.and shaokai taught me say it's possible on the guitar.damn fun!!i didnt know so many pple knew that song.but that girl really sang super well.here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ARHyRI9_NB4&mode=related&search

yup.hope u love it too.she composed it herself.damn zai.haha yeah so after guitar we had exco bonding.thankfully the attendance was good.had a really full meal at prince.haha.so im home now.feeling much better.at least my nose aint leaking still.it's those watery kind that'll keep flowing and u cant sneeze it all out at one go so u'll use like lots of tissue.eww.super glad it's better.hopefully i'll be in a better mood tmr now that im not that sick.ya so once again sorry for being grumpy today.x)

just a lame joke our math lecturer shared today. there was this man called Strange who died.Strange was a lawyer and an honest man.when they buried him they thought of wad to write on the tombstone.they wanted to write "buried here is Strange,a lawyer and an honest man" but they thought it sounded like 3 men were buried there.so one of them thought,"we should write 'Strange was both a lawyer and an honest man". Finally one of them came out with an ingenious inscription: "Here lies an honest man who is a lawyer." when someone passed the tombstone that day, that person said "That's Strange".

i changed it abit cos i cant rmb the thing wholesale but the main idea is there.credit to the math lecturer=)

shopping.turn out bad.

2006-07-03T17:43:00.000+08:00

was wondering wad to do today ytd and then eunice asked me out.i was like ok.so today i happily went shopping.and came home feeling horrible.my nose is running at 1cm/sec and it sucks.i cant like sneeze out everything at one go.it just flows non-stop.and it was okayy after awhile so i went out happily to meet eunice.then after shopping for quite some time it started to run again.and i was tearing so badly that shue said that my eyes were red.crap.so when they went to bugis to find the rest at 3 i decided i should go home.which is a right choice cos im still tearing and sneezing as i type now.and it makes my head pound everytime i sneeze.and my nose is blocked now so i need to use my mouth to breathe.feel like a goldfish.haha.hope i get well soon.i feel sick long enough.yet not sick enough to miss sch.feeling quite dazed now.shall sign off.

oops.

2006-07-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

now that blocks is over..im supposed to be damn happy.and i can do things that i longed to do for such a long time.but.im have totally no mood to do them.not feeling well this few days again since blocs ended.getting a damn irritating headache.crap.and not to mention a sore throat.again!totally crap man.

and just now i just helped my bro train maple cos he has to go out and there is this dunno wad 2X exp thingy from 730-930.i was like ok since im free.who knows cos i ahvent been mapling since goodness knows how long ago i died pretty quickly.and he was training at habourfront with all the monkeys and crabs.i died twice b4 i knew it(the 2nd time was bcos i forgot i only had 50lives after i die).so the exp went from 80+% to 63!!i nearly died training.was damn scared my bro would kill me.so i trained like hell and it was finally 80+% again!was damn relieved.then bcos i was so happy i didnt realised a money actually appeared at where i was standing and i died again!it was like omg.the exp went down to 76% again.i was like shit.my bro is really going to kill me now.then when he came back he was like O.o.i was like><.haha.then i told him i train until 80% then i died.so it was 76.but he realised i died more then once(like crap)and i think he really wanted to kill me already.waste so much pot and manna and i lost 5% for him.and 5% is alot of exp when he's lvl45.really took damn long from 63%-80% la.am so NOT going to touch his account ever again.i think he's already on the verge of shooting arrows at me.so i shant touch it anymore.super relieved he didnt chop of my head cos he's competing with his fren i think.yeah so that ends my maple journey.haiz.not like i'll maple alot anywayx)

and im super bored for this hol after blocks.i suddenly feel damn free.too free.and yet have so many stuff to do that i dunno wad to do.at least im doing something on tue(going to be damn fun!)haha..looking forward to it.and maybe im going out shopping with eunice tmr.hmm i think confirm.so ok maybe it wont be that boring afterall.and i'll do a masterpiece!!i havent drawn for ages.wanna do a nice one.but yet to find a nice picture though..haha shall go find one after i blog.=)

Finally over!

2006-06-30T17:32:00.000+08:00

whee blocks is officially over.phew!bio wasnt that bad thankfully.then my class went out to eat at cafe cartel.and then some went to watch movie,others went home for a well deserved sleep and some of us walked around a lil.everyone was just tired i guess.it's just 5 subjects including gp and it's more tiring than studying for Os.really tiring.im like pretty tired now too but i dont usually slp in the afternoon.shall slp early today maybe=)for now i shall take a nice break doing nice stuff like i dont know wad yet.maybe prac my piano or guitar or something.and tmr's SF's anniversary.looking forward to it but i just wished that my frens could come actually.i'll be singing!haha x)surprisingly im not as high as i thought i would.tired i guess.but im really happy that block's over.like a huge burden gone.gosh this is much worse than sec sch la.at least i didnt have mid yr exams.and having 2 mid yrs next yr...so not looking forward to it.anyway i shall just throw it aside now since we're getting back papers probably like 3wks later.ha.stupid teachers refuse to give marking day.at least i dont have sch till wed.hmm.good enough i suppose.and my class bdae is coming!so excited.5th july.hmm i was thinking we could celebrate on tue.since wed lots of pple will have cca.shall suggest it=D

Last day tmr!

2006-06-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

whee!tmr's last day for blocks.wah cant wait for it to come.abit no mood to study now.damn tired from math and chem.ESPECIALLY CHEM!my goodness.we had a non air-con class room that's sleep inducing.doesnt help when the damn mcq are super duper difficult.i tikam at least one quarter of the qns.then when it came to structured i was damn exhausted to think properly.hai.the whole paper was horribly difficult.and when the paper finally finished at 310 we still had to rush home to study for bio!!gosh i was so tired nothing went into my head.in the end i took a nap.feeling much better now.supposed to be searching for the highly recommended animations for DNA and see wad am i doing now=/anyway abt the rest of the papers:econs was not surprisingly quite easy thanks to siva.gp was argh!esp the AQ..has 2 parts..rush for time like mad.then math today..was ok thankfully.yeah so chem was one of the worst besides gp.hopefully the bio tmr will be manageable.but i certain dont want to hold high hopes abt that.yeah ok gotta study.ja ne.

Total breakdown.physically AND mentally.

2006-06-21T17:36:00.001+08:00

Gosh i finally blogged again.after i was so determined not to.too sick.as in literally.and too sick to continue staring at induction and hydrolysis and goodness knows what.

why cant i be sick like one wk later.then i can miss the HELL wk.being sick now just suck bcos i cant study.i sneeze like one after the other.(i must have emptied at least one tissue box a day)and keep coughing like nobody's business and keep running to the toilet to get rid of phlegm.cant even sit down and study for 5 min in peace.besides me running out of my room to refill my cup of crysanthenum, i have my parents running into my room to check out how i am, whether i need more water, wanna take all sorts of funny pills(i didnt see a doctor) and asking me to drink more water, open the window, walk about more(havent i walked out of the room enough already) cos it's not good to sit down for so long, exercise abit and adjusting my fan...goodness knows why they have so much things to do.i know it's out of concern but i really cant study for peace.and i really havent studied much until this wk.i pia-ed almost all of chem ytd and today was a sickening whole day of math cos i havent done much for either subj.and with that wool-y head and tearing from sneezing too much im like sooo tired already.

just to show u what i've been studying for the past minutes:
suppose if this 2 statements are true: 1) valerie is sneezing and coughing like nobody's business. 2) if im sick then i cant study. we reason thus: by the 1st statement, it can be concluded that valerie is sick. and by the 2nd statement, we can conclude that valerie cant study because she's sick. because the 1st statement confirms that valerie is sick we can come to the conclusion that she cant study. Note that BOTH statements are required to reach the conclusion.

and the method of proof that i just used is called induction, one of the mosty powerful, most stunning techniques in the MATHEMATICIAN's repertoire!now who says i want to be a mathematician? gee..my post just proves how sick(crazy/perverted/mad/or just simply literally) i am.which EQUATES(argh math) total breakdown.and thus SUMS(omg math again-.-"') up my whole entry.

Thou shall not procrastinate.

2006-06-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

Visited Chris' blog.and had the reminder blasted straight in my face.then i know that im dead.havent made much progress.and next wk will be a busy wk preparing for students fellowship anniversary bcos im in the committee.im so dead.and then im going for my shopping and movies which i havent really done so until now.but now i realised im really dead.havent started bio or chem and that sucks.oh did i say i was dead already.haix.long ago.not like i did alot for math or econs.ok enough said.cant believe i did so little so far.Gambatte myself.and for u guys out there seeking for their self-discipline too.

The past wk.

2006-06-06T19:37:00.000+08:00

Hmm..let's see my hols after the camp.they're just..great.right.

Monday.came home from camp(venezia in fact) and was bombarded with "how was camp?" on msn.read through my flooded inbox with exco stuff and tried abit of the guitar score i was supposed to teach the next day.

Tueday.went sch at 8 to prac guitar part then taught guitar2 to a mere3 pple.then had exco bonding.and when i reached home i was super tired.no prize for guessing why.and i slpt.woke up at 1900.and shucks.realised i havent done 2 out of 3 econs essay.wrote half of one while chatting.slpt quite late.(infact i slpt quite late almost everyday now)

Wednesday.woke up early thankfully b4 the alarm rang.and rushed through the 1 1/2 econs essay.which was lucky i did 'cause he went through the last one i did.had econs lesson and went for dental.which i had a horrible waiting experience(see prev prev post ending) while the rest had pw.hmm..guess i didnt miss much for pw since most he did was pretty useless(study for blocs!-.-"')then i went home.and slpt again!oh man..i nva took so many afternoon maps in my life!must have been really tired from the camp.and then started packing all my stuff.

Thursday.a day i finally have the whole day to myself.packed my room(YAYY!)played my piano which i havent touched for ages(YAYY again) played on my guitar(YAYY) and read my book(YAYY).haha.basically it was a yayy day.

Friday.pretty much like thursday.so it was another yayy day.really practiced my piano since a long time and i really enjoyed it.hai..how i wish i could do that during sch days.

Saturday.morning was really slack.went compasspoint to eat with my dad.then i went to walk around abit(i felt so shopping deprived!).haha..like to window shop alot=)then waited for my dad to change his phone then we went to yakun shop for coffee(at least my dad did).i bought bubble tea and drank.was really enjoying myself.then realised i have sf meeting at 2!and it was 130 alr.damn anti-climax.had to rush home grab my stuff and head for church.then had students' fellowship(sf) and then i went with my friend to plaza singapura(ps) to get my tuner.then my fren treat me to pasta mania and walked around alittle.had a really great time.ooh!we played arcade too.some game that required hand leg coordination.my fren was damn good la.but it was my 1st time playing.at least i didnt fair that badly(80+% hit). ok the following was requested by my fren(super ego can):my fren's super nice and i made my fren talk alot and err had a great conversation(isnt it more like monologue judging from the prev comment><)

Sunday.super hectic day.had church in the morning as usual then went to the world bk fair to help my church bkroom stall distribute gospel tracts.was a great experience.just that my sole ache like hell from standing super long.not like im wearing comfortable shoes.then sat down for dinner for a few min and went off to meet yueqi to watch co concert.the concert was commendable..and chris' solos were really gd.we sat beside his parents and his younger bro(recognised by his curly hair oops.)he was sitting on yueqi's seat at 1st then he moved when he saw us coming.and man we were trying to be careful with our words.i cant really rmb wad we said but it was nothing insulting.but not very nice either.haha.oh his bro has his eyes and his heart shaped smile and his hair.woah.i still think it's damn cool to have 2brothers.i mean if i am a guy.then i went home feeling super tired.and i still have guitar the next day!oh wells.

monday.had guitar.went to sch at 8 as usual.reached home at 330 cause poor jane has jaw ache and couldnt eat quickly.and i took an afternoon nap again.dunno wad's wrong with me.i really never took afternoon naps last time!woke up feeling pretty guilty cos i told myself i should start studying alr.boy do i have 3wks only.told myself i shall study till 10 b4 i go online.ended up going online at 9+.hai.where is my self discipline?i feel anxious but not that anxious to motivate me to start studying.which is very bad.cos i really should be super anxious already.hai.tried alittle binomial.my goodness.i had 0% understanding of the topic.i dunno why was it like this or that and it sucked.spent like dunno how long just clarifying doubts on the lecture notes(thanks miss tan).and then the tutorial.finally i think i understand 60% if not more.

today.slacked.oh man,told myself that valerie u can do it.u have to round up binomial and finish ap gp by today.u are motivated.u can do it.bleah.like it worked.i slacked like shit.until now i finished binomial only.wanted to make sure i really understand.and again i wasnt suppose to come online till10.at least im appearing offline for msn.ok.back to studying.hai.tmr?pw meeting.thurs?sf meeting.fri?sat?sun?that'll be next entry.

reflections

2006-06-05T20:37:00.000+08:00

oh well.just a sudden impulse to blog.was just thinking about some stuff.and i realised sometimes its really good just to say out wad's bothering me.i mean..it may be something very personal where u just really dont want to share it with people or thought that u cant share it with others..but once u say it out u really might feel better.at least i did.and talking to others really cast a new light to your doubts and troubles.well at least most of the time.there are chances that the opposite may just happen,but if u are really feeling terrible abt something i guess it's just good to tell it to someone.

yeah.and lastly a random thought: being much too close is never a good thing.

sighh.at least ive learn to let go.and im happier.

Fac camp rocks!

2006-05-29T22:39:00.000+08:00

on sat i really dont want to go for the camp.but i guess i'll really miss alot of i didnt go.on sat.840.waited in sch for the bus and then took at ferry to ubin.

met our instructors,did some screaming(HwaChong Ooi!)which was like still quite sian.then we had lunch i think.food was nicer than expected.(and we're all so hungry!)and we have an eating cheer!it goes like very very (clap clap) hungry hungry(clap clap) and so on.then we decided on our group name and drew our class flag(go avis!).

and we pitched out tents.which was quite fun.haha.

then we had activities like crossing the acid river(fake one) using only a rope that's hung in the center and no one could reach it.in the end the 2 rope heroes from your class had to use shoelaces and shoes to get the rope.they really did it so many times that i think they super pro alr..hahaha.then we had a mohog walk where we all have to be like acrobats and walk on wire just holding on to our frens.in this activity u could really see the class spirit burning.everyone was so determined to walk till the end of the wire.our class just rocks.then it was bathing time and dinner.

dinner was damn interesting.we had outdoor cooking and we had to cook sausages,potatoes and carrots over the fire.my goodness.we were like quite anyhow.hahaha.some had too much salt.others were not wrapped up properly that when we flipped the whole thing everything fell out.the food was quite little but i think in the end everyone had their fill.the carrots were like still raw.the potatoes were still crunchy.and the onions were..too stingy.hahaha..only the sausages were like super nice.but it was a really fun experience.one setback was that i was serving food and everything was dark and i couldnt really see properly.and when pple asked me if i want food i just ask them to put on my palm and pop the thing into my mouth.after a while i realised i had bits of something on my hand and i thot it was just salt..so i washed with a little water cos there was seriously hardly any left.and i thot cos there was really too much salt so not all of them dissolved,and i just left them on my hand.when i went to the toilet to wash,i nearly died of shock.i see a hell lot of soot on my hand!!prob from serving the food.oh man.i wonder how much carbon i actually took in that night.grr.

yeah.so that was cooking.after which i think we learnt a few songs and cheers(everybody dance now).then it was supper!u couldnt believe how everyone craved for supper after that dinner.haha.then we went to slp.
haha next day.oh man im super long winded.haha.we had pt.which was sian.not very demanding.at least it wasnt a run around pulau ubin.had to do some finger palm elbow etc thing.which was dumb.then we did the "heave the tyre out of the pole" thing if i didnt rmb wrongly.our instructor said no one's supposed to touch the pole but i think we pushed it like a zillion times.it looks like it was going to collapse haha.in the end we heaved reihorng up and he heaved the tyre out.which we wont supposed to do but i realised a zillion other teams did that as well.haha.then lunch.then it rained like hell.we had some indoor games which was ok la.but we had to miss the leap of faith!ok.actually i aint very enthu abt that.i prob wont be able to stand on the pole lest jump of it.im super scared of this kind of things la.i'll start shaking like mad..haha.then i think we discussed alittle abt our camp item.i cant rmb wad we did(was it rafting?)but we were dirty and begging the instructor to let us bathe b4 we eat dinner.i mean we shouldnt bathe after we eat anw.but they refused to let us do so.we were soaking mad.oh yeah.should be rafting.we had to do 3 games to obtain our materials.the 1st game was trying to squeeze 12 pple unto 4-reduced-to-2 squares. the 2 squares one we nearly died.we were stepping on each other's feet and hugging onto each other with our dear lives.but someone's elbow poked into my ribs and someone gripped my waist.which was a very bad thing cos im damn ticklish.haha.the other 2 games we lost.but doesnt matter.then we had to compete with 7B.peter gave us tips(thanks) for building the raft.then when the competition start,both our rafts couldnt move and 7B's split into 2.we thot we could win but in the end we capsized right at the beginning.then someone's specs fell into the river and we all had to hunt for it(to no avail unfortunately).then our class raft started to fall apart as well.wadeva we tried we didnt managed to start rafting at all.7B couldnt as well.so in the end the trainers just stopped the competition cos we were not supposed to be in the water without a life jacket which was wad most of us were doing.oh wells.but it was quite fun la anw.and we were once again thankful for the dinner cos we were so hungry.haha.(we're always hungry.did i mention that already?haha) then we had campfire.our class did the ice kachang song.damn fun.other classes' items were entertaining too.and it's my 1st time seeing a hi-fi system and a mic for campfire!and they were playing music throughout.haha.then there were 2 dance competition.one among representatives from groups and another for the trainers.quite interesting.haha.and the campfire went from big to puny.damn amusing trying to see the trainers pour kerosene to salvage the fire.cos after a big blast it'll die down again.haha.
then it was supper again.oh man i think gained a hell lot of weight during the camp.haha.then next day.(finally!)
last day.had breakfast.then it was the team pyramid challenge(TCP).

cool right?we had to go up in groups of 4..and it was a long planning period of who to put in each group.then have some briefing.and up goes the 1st grp.i was in the 2nd grp so it wasnt that scary.cld see wad the 1st group was doing.i was telling myself that im not scared.but in the end i still gripped chris and yuting damn tightly(thanks chris and yuting=D)and thanks terry too for being in my group.hahaha.it was really team effort and it was really great to have pple cheering for u.and when u go higher up it's really not that scary alr(except for the step of faith.oh my.i really didnt dare to step my 2nd leg onto the next platform.haha.was really gald when the whole grp reached the flying fox.and my whole group was quite scared for it cos it looked quite high.then when chris screamed when he went down i was really scared.i stayed up there for damn long.haha.then when i took off i screamed,then i realised that it really wasnt that scary.haha.in fact after the front it was quite sian.at least i can say that i did the tcp and the flying fox b4=)haha.it was really the highlight and a good end to the camp.then we had lunch(our last meal!!).i really missed camp food man.it's really good.hahaha.then we packed up and blah blah and we left for home!a group pic:
and after that we went venezia to eat gelato.damn nice!oh man.u dunno how soft crink deprived u are until u're in the camp.hahaha.the gelato was really great and we had chicken from gourmet too=)lol.home sweet home!then i went back home to find a new guitar score awaiting me and 18 msges from exco!i nearly died absorbing everything.ha.and everyone bombarded me with how's the camp on msn and i ended up slping at 12+ i think.and woke up at 615 the next day.had the 1st guitar prac conducted by MIs.it was..ok i guess.just that the turnout rate was super pathetic.sighh.pple join guitar2s!!we lack pple!hahaha.it's a nice part actually.then we had exco bonding and straight after i reach home i just slpt till 615pm.i was super duper tired.even when i woke up i was pretty dazed.then i really groaned.damn econs essay.i did from 6pm to 1am can.and didnt even finish half an essay cos i was chatting.bleh.woke up today at 8 to complete them all.thank goodness i woke up early today.he went through the essay i did last!but econs lesson today was quite sian.nothing much but i guess quite a few pointers given.the class size was pathetic.then it was even worse for pw i think.i had to go for dental but i heard it's quite slack also.oh yeah dental.IM SO PISSED.i reached there exactly my appointment time.and i had to wait a damn 15min for the person to register me cos the pple in front had lots of prob.cant they just register me 1st?it wont take them a min la.make me late for 16min.then after that i have to wait another freakin half an hour for my appointment.goodness knows why the person infront of me took so long.and my bladder was bursting.finally i got damn fedup waiting and i went to the toilet.just when i stepped out of the clinic i heard a buzzing sound.i know it must be mine.i hecked it and rushed to the toilet 1st.make me wait like hell.u should wait too.then i rushed back and my dentist scolded me for being so late EVEN WHEN IT'S SCHOOL HOLS AND I DONT HAVE SCH.wad the.I WAS WEARING MY SCH U IS SHE BLIND?then she changed my rubberband and stuff which took less than 5min.wad the.i had to wait 15 min for a stupid registration.wait another almost 40min for my appointment.get a scolding.and my appointment was a damn 5min.i was slping during that 40min but i was really super super super pissed.i mean it's not my fault la.irritating pigs.so yeah.oh my.u must be super to read up to here cos i must have typed a zillion words.haha.signing off...

Sabs rocks!

2006-05-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

Whee.love my sabs..iceskating totally rocks man!bah..still can rmb i nearly died when the coach pull me along then suddenly let go of me..i was like wobbling like a jelly..haha.then after that i just skate up and down a few times then it was much better alr..took lots of pics..haha..nice=)then today when i went on ice again i lost the feeling..i was worse than yesterday i think..haha.but at least i could skate much better at the end of the whole thing..though im still wobbly..haha.and i think im sick!crap.oh man..my breathe feels hot and my head doesnt feel right..grr..i hope i dont fall sick b4 the apollo camp or during the camp itself=/im going to drown my cells in water..HAHA.

Take me away.

2006-05-23T10:02:00.000+08:00

I cannot find a way to describe it

It's there inside

All I do is hide

I wish that it would just go away

What would you do

You do if you knew

What would you do (DO)

(Chorus)

All the pain

I thought I knew

All the thoughts lead back to you

Back to what

Was never said

Back and forth

Inside my head

I can't handle this confusion

I'm unable come and take me away

I feel like I am all alone

All by myself

I need to get around this

My words are cold

I don't want them to hurt you

If I show you

I don't think you'd understand

'Cause no one understands (understands, yeah!)

(Chorus)

Take me away

Break me away

Take me away

dear teachers

2006-05-21T17:18:00.000+08:00

love the j3s.they are really nice teachers who make an effort to gather feedback on their lesson,improve on their lessons,and put absolute effort on trying to let us understand our work much better.Unlike *ahem* and *ahem* who teach us a subj that starts with E and has to do with money and another that starts with G and ends with P.the j3s really made their solution idiot proof(which idiots like me desperately need them) and can understand why we dont understand our lectures and are super patient in trying to explain to us all the stuff.will miss them loads.lessons are really fun with them..unlike with the 2 *ahems* again.we can joke with them, laugh with them, be cranky with them and whatsoever.and now they're leaving.im sure they're reluctant to leave too.i mean 75 is such a nice class.MUAHA.we gave them an experience never to forget.so did they give us.but now they're leaving for their future.we should be happy for them.all of them are super smart pple(like duh)haha.so all the best teachers!or rather..friends=)

I can finally slack!

2006-05-19T18:47:00.000+08:00

whee!i can finally slack!hahaha..i've been saying this sentence since the start of this wk..and i finally really got to slack only today cos i realised i've been neglecting tuts..haha.
just watched sch of rock..really reminded me of pulse when they played the song..just that our band is more stone.haha.it's a really great memory and experience for me..no matter how pple feel about our band.Avis really rocks. we may have underperformed on that day..but i felt really great..all the practice sessions and stuff..i feel really blessed to be in the band.to many it seems so unbelievable why i would even be into rock.actually i dont know why i even agreed to join the band when simon asked me.i said yes faster than i considered anything.of course i wasnt very confident of being a good keyboardist,but my heart just told me to go for it.when i received my 1st score i was like oh no.bcos it's all chords,no proper score.and my improvisation was horrible.the 1st prac session was at simon's house,and i played my 1st 2 songs-sweet child and green tinted.haha..i sucked la.but 1st time mah..and we tried other songs also..and sometimes i just hear them play..and it's really nice=)and ok one thing that im damn guilty of-is that i always say i'll go improve on my part..but everywk i play back almost the same thing cos i dunnno how to improve it..so songs i can improve la but others are like..fixed.haha.=/and for the auditions i was really very happy.i was damn nervous b4 that la..and super stressed out cos another band played sweet child also.but i guess i was really glad that we did sweet child cos green tinted is not so outstanding i guess.really thank God for that.then it was followed by all the studio practices and stuff.and preparation for pulse!haha..it was a long journey.not exactly smooth sailing.but i really savour every bit of it and treasure it.i was really a noob la when i 1st join.dont even listen to rock songs b4 this.haha.so it was a new journey for me.and a great one too.and mastering spirit was a great achievement for all of us.it requires like so much technique.we do make mistakes but hey,we actually learn it within 3mths or something?yupp.then it was finally pulse.some touchy feelings and discomfort i guess for the rehearsals and actual day,but i believe it's bcos everyone just wanted to do our best.it was really bad actually bcos i supposed everyone have to study for their test and prac for pulse at the same time.and i admit i did neglect my pieces=/i mean i did prac but very little la.now that pulse is over(ok that's like quite long alr)i just want to think of the nice memories.bcos it's too great and awesome and experience.i miss jamming.watching sch of rock really made me feel very touched.jamming..it's where i find myself.just love music loads.haha..feeling so sentimental now lol.
ok..on a happier note..today is the last day of proper sch!whee!really glad that ive keep to my resolutions and be consistent.i really need to work hard.i know im quite mugger la..but it's bcos im just harworking than the rest of u..but actually i slack alot too.haha.see im always online=/and i play as hard too.and i exercise too.haha.and i have my instruments too!yeah..so 1st semester's over.blocs..argh!ok let's not talk abt it 1st..next wk's sabs!haha..looking forward to it.and im going to go on an eating spree!of man but im growing fatter(or isit bcos i gained muscles)but im heavier now!i nearly died when i stepped on the weighing machine and saw my weight.gee..i must lose weight!haha.
nj fun fair tmr..going to meet my dear juniors!haha..miss them loads especially dear sarah.they were the only reason for hope in st nicks.my cca.my juniors.nothing else.i really treasure them.haha.yeah.
ok.signing off..

Tagged.

2006-05-16T19:35:00.000+08:00

yeah..im tagged.if not i wouldnt have blogged today.thought i can start slacking from today onwards..turn out that tuts are piling!crap.haha.ok..here goes the instruction for the tag:
INSTRUCTIONS.
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment at their blogs.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is no need to do this AGAIN.
5. The most impt rule: have fun doing it.

ok..so here it goes:
1. a)He must love me for who i am
b)He must have a similar mindset and personality as i do
c)He must have integrity
d)and a sense of responsibility
e)must 感动到我
f)must be supportive and understanding
g)love music(haha..this is easy)
h)fun-loving

2.duh it's a guy(how many 'he's have i used)

3.the 8 victims(muaha)
soph yueqi yuting yx dion wahtoon terry solomon

4.erpx.if u are tagged b4 but is tagged with as diff one pls do as well.actually i just dunno who to ask to do this la.haha.so its random.

5.fun?oh yeah.tagging pple is fun.being tagged is not.haha.

yeps that's all.

My dear brothers and sisters

2006-05-13T13:27:00.000+08:00

Just something that touched my heart.came to HC without knowing wad to expect.and then i knew there are quite a number of christians in my class.and the senior class.then i knew tengen.and i was really rejoicing.then an unexpected surprise after the interview for guitar exco.there are many christians as well.more than the normal %.much more than i expected.im just so touched.and i feel for them.love them as brothers and sisters in the Lord.May be grow spiritually in faith,love,hope and justice, trusting him more each day and forevermore.May we help one and another,constantly praying for each other,abiding by his words, and spread his wonderful LOVE.Thank you Lord.

Thank you Lord

for the trials that come my way

in a way i can grow each day

as i let u lead;

and Thank you Lord

for the patience those trials bring

in the process of growing

i can learn to care.

(Chorus)

But it goes against the way i am

to put my human nature down

and let the spirit take control

of all i do.

'Cos when those trials come

my human nature shouts the thing to do

and God's soft prompting

can be easily ignored.

But i thank you Lord

with each trial i feel inside

that you're there to help, lead and guide

me away from wrong;

'Cause u promised Lord

that with each testing

that your way of escaping's easier to bear.

(Chorus)

Yes, i thank you Lord

for the victory that growing brings

in surrender of everything

life is so worthwhile;

and i thank you Lord

that when everything's put in place

out in front i can see your face

and it's there u belong.

(Chorus)

better.

2006-05-13T10:43:00.000+08:00

haha..thanks mel for the assurance.and yx too.haha.nice seniors are always nice to have,and im glad i was a nice senior too for S.O.=D yeah i guess it's the same for everyone.i guess im just too sensitive la.but yeah it really seemed like i screwed everything on wed.the interview,the camp discussion and the voicing of wad we discussed.i can fully understand why they have to pose such difficult task and stuff..bcos all the candidates are seriously very good.plenty of leadership.and im sure that no matter who the final 10 will be,guitar exco will definitely govern guitar well.i know that this year's exco really put in their all for guitar and we can really see their hardwork,their effort.yeah.i guess i was silly.i was really so pissed on wed. oh well..i just hope for fairplay and that everyone will be judged fairly.i know the j2s dont like some people.but i think that if they really can contribute to guitar and are passionate about it,they should be given the chance as well.so yupp.glad that my mood's better bcos im like affecting others too.sorry to those whose mood were dampened due to me and really thanks for all the trust and encouragement u all gave me.yep.thanks alot.

trying to heal an intangible scar.

2006-05-12T11:59:00.000+08:00

yeah.it's so difficult to heal it.damn it.quite disappointed with the exco members present at the interview.doubting my enthusiasm just bcos i stopped lessons for an instrument?!wad the.if i stopped lessons means that i dont like my instru anymore meh?i just know that i dont have the time to continue pursuing the grades.i just want to learn my instru at a comfortable pace.no stress on myself nor on my parent's pocket.yeah.i still love music that's definite.and im super committed once im at something.i may not be that qualified but i'll always give more than my 100% to it.bcos responsIbility. the central letter is I.me.and i'll always live by that principle.responsibility pushes me to do everything.now im demoralised.im blinded by how they slam my enthusiasm down.now it's really down and i dont see responsibility.but the exco is going to have a hard time picking out 10 out of 12.or rather 11 since i dont see the point of working with such people.I DONT LIKE TO BE ACCUSED BY PEOPLE.and they did just that.i know u all have to zham people to pick out that 10..but u all just overdid it.im sorry.that's quite offending.im really glad that people out there trust me so much.and told me to believe in myself.but i really lost the hope in exco.very sorry to disappoint u all.but if i dont get in so be it.u all can read this entry and slam me for all this,dont give me the post,or whatsoever.bcos i know that now i really cant do that much for guitar anymore.more than 100% like i did for string orch,definitely not.maybe not even 100%,i dunno.cos im really so disturbed.sorry everybody.im just feeling conflicted now.i dunno wad i want.i dunno wad to give.i really dunno.

really depressed.

2006-05-10T21:30:00.000+08:00

my goodness.this wk is my unlucky wk or something.from morning i forgot to grab my nicely written in point form econs notes, then i missed the bus.then the stupid econs and math test.just screwed everything.the interview.my goodness.pls dont ask me abt it.i can just vomit blood.then got quarantined in a room with nothing to do cos i have no other lessons besides test today.and i really wanted to give up damn it.if im not meant to be MI so be it.sighh..im in such bad moods nowadays and i hate myself for that.and the guitar exco nominees really have leadership qualities.and they are damn smart too.hearing them discuss abt math i just feel like puking blood.ok.i concede defeat.but then im going to be so disappointed if i dont get in.i mean..yeah.i dunno la.and i realised i forgot to tick for chem spa.so another deduction of marks.great.

ok.i cried just now and i AM much better.just need to let it all out.shant think abt it anymore.*shuts door behind me*

NO motivation

2006-05-09T14:36:00.000+08:00

yeah right.no movitation.im going to kill myself soon. feeling damn sick of studying.somehow i really lost it.crapped.why must we memorise definitions.my world is undefined.

very good friends..great comfort=)

my supposedly luckiest day..or unluckiest day?

2006-05-08T19:49:00.000+08:00

oh man..i think it's my unluckiest day..haha.i got called during chem lect today.which is suay.then someone went up for me by accident.and sam said this must be my luckiest day.and chem spa would be alright.alright my foot.

i screwed from the start.wadeva.pressed tare,didnt realised it doesnt read -3. sth after i took the vial off the weighing machine.filled the thing happily was the 1st one to complete 2 titrations b4 anyone started on one. but my reading wad 12+ only.so wrong.was super freaked out.really wanted to give up already.checked all the steps,correct.then i realised that when lekchia collected his vial was more filled than mine.then i realised i didnt tare properly.stared at the clock.25min gone.WAD?!!!i nearly died.i have to redo everything!and i went to collect my solid again while everyone else was happily titrating.and tried to desperately dissolve my solid in HCl when everyone was doing the 2nd titration.and when i was titration everyone was frantically calculating wad on earth is x.by the time i finished titrating i had 25min to record my results state anormaly precautions and do my calculation.super freaked.and then i calculated.and got stuck at part 2 cos they didnt really guide step by step.and i really really want to cry like nobody's business.my most screwed up spa in ages.couldnt think properly.wanted to give up.used method one.couldnt get ans.method2 couldnt even be used in the 1st place.then at the last 5min i realised i calculated part 1 wrongly as well.wanted to cry even more but relieved at the same time cos at least i could do part 2 now.got 8 exactly when she said stop writing.you wouldnt know how relieved i was man.then when i heard the ans for part one i nearly died.forgot to x1000 to my ans.my whole part 1 screwed.wad the.then skill B in a fluster how can i rmb that mass is to 2dp when they wrote 7.0g in the qn paper?!aiya.just screw the whole paper.damn sad.why on earth must i screw only at the most impt titration of all titrations?screw myself.

Then i actually was super lucky after sch also.which is why i really dunno wad sort of day is today.i nearly died at 430pm today.serious.as in really going to heaven.was walking with claire to coro.then there was no car on our side,so we waited for the car on the opp side to move off then we stepped down,or rather,i stepped down 1st.and at that moment a taxi zoomed past me.just 1cm away from me.if i stepped down one second earlier i really would have died cos the taxi was so fast.really got that i picked up my life feeling.my goodness.thank God.for letting me continue living.

and this is just a short reflection.i think 我想开了。really thought over something and saw the bright side of it.my beloved(s)..all the best.sincerely.

yeah.sincerely.

reflections..and a new cpu!

2006-05-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

guitar elections was held today.the candidates were..umm..i think overly ambitious. there are people whom i think would have more chance of being in exco if they ran for other post instead of pres or vp.seems like the whole world was running for that and it's quite freaky.i think we really dunno each other that well..perhaps that's y so many pple think that they could run for pres.

as for me.well..i screwed.maybe not that badly..but i was super nervous.i mean..i've nva ran for anything b4.i started shaking since the 1st person went up..and i was 13th!and each person took damn long bcos the exco fired qns like nobody's business.so by the time it was me i was damn hungry alr(increased metabolism due to the cold room or isit just me).haha.ok..that's not the main point.anw..i went up and played a song..that i would nva have screwed up.then i played the 1st 2 phrases..and i knew i had to restart.my fingers couldnt move as i wanted them to.sighh..at least when i repeated it was better thankfully.and then i screwed up my speech bcos i forgot wad i was supposed to say and there was one section where i just crapped.then i remembered what i was supposed to say then i went back to what i was supposed to say.haha.then during the q&a i was feeling better(thanks christine) but i still screw up some of the ans la..and the attendance thing..i nva pon cca b4!i have reasons for not going and i told melinda.and if u know me in sec sch u'll know that my attendance in sec4 for cca is 500%!!yes 500%ok..and i sacrifice all my recess and some of my lunchtime and even go to my juniors house to teach them.yup..i cant guarantee 500% for j2 as well but i'll still do my best=)i know that i dont really deserve the post la..cos even though my music portfolio may seem impressive but im still a beginner for guitar!as in i can learn songs pretty fast but still cant sight read that well la..but i'll do my very best!

and the new cpu is cool!haha..it's much better now thankfully=)

stupid comp.

2006-05-03T19:05:00.000+08:00

why must i have this stupid old antique comp.my goodness.and this stupid comp just erased wadeva i typed just now.now i have to reenter everything.like that improves my mood.this comp is sick.it's pentium3..3!!!!!and the mouse keyboard internet browser sucks.and nothing rocks.my goodnees..and it keeps restarting for goodness knows wad reason?!!aiyaaaaaa....am super pissed now.if it restarts again im so going to be in a bad mood.ok..i AM already in a bad mood rather.why must i use this stupid comp when my younger brother gets to use the current one?damn it.

reminisce

2006-05-02T18:21:00.000+08:00

Went back to string orch today.didnt really want to go back at 1st because i was too lazy and it was going to rain.but then im really glad that i went back now.brought back some fond memories( they're playing old songs!)

and as i sat there to listen to them, i could remember me in their position, listening to the conductor and making stupid mistakes...then i really knew how badly i missed SO.missed it terribly.all the effort and hardwork i put in, all the joys and sorrows of it......

and i look at the new batch of juniors.hmm..not bad.hope they would carry on the good work=)SO has come far, and may the spirit carry on...

missed my conductor(ooh..it's his bdae next wk..i never knew..but we sang him a bdae song..haha..i chose the right day to go back), missed my juniors, missed the feeling of holding a viola(i took one and play like after 5 months?!),missed the fun during practices, missed SO as a whole. as i start a whole new journey with guitar, i couldnt help looking back.oh how i missed it. but since i chose guitar, may i put in my best effort in it too, so that when i go back to HC in the future, may i miss guitar as much too.

I LOVE String Orch.performing arts is just my life.my everything.and i dont regret choosing this path.

Take up your cross and follow him.

2006-05-01T19:31:00.000+08:00

believing in Jesus does not mean that life would be a bed of roses.

Once there was a few men who took up their crucifix and followed Jesus. One man complaint that his cross was too heavy, so Jesus sawed off a portion of his cross..and as they walked along, the man complained again and Jesus sawed off another portion.and this continued for a while till the man's cross was only a stump and he was satisfies because his burden was lightened.then they came to a cliff where a bridge was needed to cross over to eternity, which was their destination. the other men swung their crucifix across the two cliffs and crossed over easily. the man with a short stump could not cross over and cried for help. then a hand came down from heaven and placed a cross for him to cross over.

So thank you Lord, for helping me and granting my requests, and for forgiving me and helping me even when i do the wrong things.

Ups and downs

2006-04-29T17:46:00.000+08:00

hmm..ups 1st..or down 1st.lets do down 1st..then i can end on a happier note=)

i have so much to complete and no time to do!my homwork list keeps piling and never decreases!i strike of one..here comes 2 other,which is very bad.and i dont understand loads of topics now and im lagging behind like crazy trying to understand the earlier topics.i cant stand going on if i dont understand anything,which means im really lagging very badly.also because i had too many stuff this 2 wks i guess.and super worried for my bio test.it's really the worst.if i pass i must be floating already.haha.ok,shant elaborate any further if not i'll sound whinneeyyyy.

and whee!guitar exco elections are coming!quite excited=)the down thing is that i really dont like making speeches cos i seriously dont see how that could show others that u can lead.most of the time speeches are never fufilled.all that talk about i know i cant promise u all anything but i'll do my best.im sure most pple of not all will do their best,it's just whether their best is better than the rest. but im glad they allow us to run in 2s or 3s..which seriously improves the situation by alot..haha.really hope i can get a post.pple give me too much assurance already.im sure there are pple who are much better than i am and there's a hell lot of pple running this year(goodness knows why).but guitar seems to have lots of leaders this year.when they annonuced council results there were a damn lot of pple who stand up and walked out of the room.my goodness.and i cans ee from this exco elections that there are more than expected.but i'llput in my best effort.haha=)

And another whee!pulse has ended.guitar has ended.both successfully. really glad to have these experiences in my jc life that made it really meaningful.i guess i can never escape from performing arts.LOVE it TOO MUCH.although guitar practices are boring but it's nice to perform in a guitar ensemble=)that's WHY im running for exco!i'll try to make practices more enjoyable.my goodness..for those who knows how to play the songs alr..they would be bored to death?!hahaha..i'll think of something la.

And yet another whee!lol..super super satisfies with my math and econs marks..after all the hardwork.feel super satisfied.but i shall NOT remain complacent.my goodness..still need loads of marks to pull up my econs cos i did so badly for the 1st 2.and for math i'll die cos i dont understand any other topics besides those that were tested.so jiayou val!i can do it=)

one whole wk's worth of update

2006-04-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating for one bloody wk.bcos the wk was really bloody hell.sorry for using such crude terms.

mon and tue..basically i was just pia-ing for bio and panicking for econs which i wanted to give up initially.then i realised it wld be damn stupid to do that thanks to the really "good" results for the other econs tests.

wed.screwed econs.like duh.then pon cca to study bio.wanted to anw. ended up going for heats.and i cant believe i got into the finals for javelin!haha.that's dumb.then ran 4x100.then the javelin teacher ask me to throw immediately after the relay.my poor leg was wobbling la but the teacher say throw!so i threw and all 3 times it didnt poke the ground...so yeah.and i ended up home even later than i would had i gone for cca.was so tired from heats i gave up studying bio after dna.

thurs.screwed bio.like duh again.answered without thinking properly cos got no time.30min for 30marks where one point is half mark.heck it.then wanted to study math during pulse rehearsal.then realised i didnt bring my math and had to photocopy.took one hour to do an easy qn.like wad the.and they took damn long to set up.in the end we couldnt prac.only had run-through.and by that time i really gave up math.started drawing haha which really make me feel much relaxed from all the tests and stuff.went home at 10,reached home at 11+,bath and sleep.who cares about math.

Fri.surprisingly math was the most ok almost the 3.but still screwed quite abit.had that freaky feeling the whole day.not like im nervous cos im used to the stage.think im just very excited.had stupid napfa where i scrapped C for sit and reach and shuttle run and the rest was ok la.just that i have shoulder ache and thigh ache and tummy ache today.then got hour break b4 lecture and i thot i could study.then the napfa took the time.so i just went for math test without studying much.screwed the 1st qn,had to erase and redraw the graph and waste 5 precious min.super pissed.then after math it was like relieve,cos at least all the tests are over.then start worrying for j2 assembly cos we havent done sweet child for ages!rotted for pw talking crap.then played sweet child.was ok la just that yawen keep forgetting to come in even on the actual thing itself.then rehearsed for pulse.everyone worried for their parts.really freaked.then when the concert started i screwed(noticeable right?)and restarted.cos i really couldnt continue.then when sch of rock ended we actually thot it turned out quite well.so we were hoping our actual item would be good too.after that we're sitting behind the curtains to watch the other bands.they were like damn good,even the all boys band with the not so good singer could draw the crowd with their antics.then when monica's band was playing some of us started worrying.we were just fideling with light sticks.haha.then it finally our turn.we're supposed to start playing when the curtains start to move.but the stoopid keyboard screwed.i turn the vol to max and it's still super soft.then everyone was cheering like mad that they prob didnt catch the intro.(im like super glad for the loud cheering because someone said something super embarrassing and i didnt know until someone else told me.)i wanted to extend the intro,then yawen started!i was quite caught but managed to catch up at least.then the rest was ok for my part already.was quite happy for my part.then we had encore.i feel so bad.cos the other bands deserve an encore more than we did.really.but i guess the encore piece was better than the rest of our pieces actually.at least it was high.and it was quite weird for pple to cheer for me so much,cos my part is like not so significant compared to the guitarist and drums and etc.then i realised its by my cca frens today.haha.really glad to have this opportunity to play in a band and play for a concert.it was a really great experience no matter wad.yeahh.and thanks for all the support!really really grateful=)

so after everything.i realised how much bloody homework and projects i have.oh man.im taking a super long time to blog.which i really shouldnt have cos my whole wkend is gone.sighh..still no slacking after everything?unfortunately not.

A word of thanks.

2006-04-14T13:49:00.000+08:00

Thank you everyone for enouraging me all this while..really..a hundred thousand thanks..i really was alittle stressed..still is..but just enough to motivate myself..im actually getting slacker..on wed and thurs i go home and try to study..then by 9 or sth cannot tahan alr..will just sleep..think cos too tired from guitar and jamming..but still..ive accomplished little..and now im still online..haha..having my lunch actually..shall studying later..and i still have to go to church in the evening..my poor wkend..haha..nvm..i'll just try my best without stressing myself..hopefully i dont have to give up econs..

my constant reminder.to myself.

2006-04-10T20:31:00.000+08:00

dear val, pls note that u have bio econs and math test next wk as well as guitar rehearsal and pulse.pls brace yourself up this wk if not u'll die next wk.that's all.go study now and stop going online.

2006-04-07T20:53:00.000+08:00

okay.i have a bruise now.thankfully.damn scared that i hurt myself really badly.but it still hurts and my mum wants me to let the doctor rub it.i think i'll scream lor.im damn scared of pain.bleh.haha.nvm.i shall see how is it for another day 1st.

and im super tired!just came back from cca and it's like super tiring.i left sch at 630 and reached home at 8 thanks to 86.took damn long to come and the whole bus was so flooded i couldnt move at all.by the time i got down the bus i almost couldnt walk.damn spastic.aye.suppose to do my PI now.but im so tired!but if i dont start doing it today i can die for the wkend.so bloody busy.thank goodness im not going to the research symposium tmr..feel quite bad to make eunice go in my place but if i go tmr i really wont be able to survive.think i'll have to get up early to do my stuff anw=(wad sad life.why must everything fall in apr..and the last 2 wks somemore.damn it.ok.gotta start on my PI.feel like sleeping now actually.jiayou to myself!haha.

2006-04-06T20:34:00.000+08:00

wad the.dunno wad's wrong with me today.was just walking towards the canteen with simon ck putain and their frens and saying hi to soph and yueqi and that the next moment i was in an unsightly position sitting on the steps with my legs stretched out.damn pain!argh.luckily i still can walk but it hurts like hell.so irritating.and then i have to stand for almost 2 hours.kept leaning against the wall.not like sitting down helps actually.and the worst thing is that there is no blueblack!goodness knows wad i hurt man.didnt really hit my bones when i landed.just alittle la.not directly thankfully.shall watch a few days and see wad happens.

and i dunno if i should go for the science research symposium.on one hand im actually rather curious to know wad it is abt,but then i want my beauty sleep!it's like at 8am on sat and i have jamming too.guess i'll pon if enough people pon=)haha.

feeling better

2006-04-05T22:37:00.000+08:00

i had a headache ytd..stressed my eyes too much i think..it hurts to close my eyes cos it feels like it's going to buldge out anytime..damn scary..couldnt do anything ytd.. so i slept alot anyway..still hurts when i woke up and became worse during council elections..but when i went for guitar it was much better..and oh no!im in a dilemma now and i hope guitar and pulse wont clash for goodness sake..aik chuan said pulse should be priority before cca but guitar pres says from now onwards guitar pracs are compulsory and put aside any other commitments..i feel so great man..like i can cut myself up i woould do so..this is so dumb..and then in may i'll be damn free..

but actually im feeling less stressed already..somehow i suddenly dont have that much homework!just have to start reading lecture notes earlier due to the commitments..yup..and i think i shant become a doctor.

ok..that's random.

What am i doing?

2006-04-03T19:46:00.000+08:00

my goodness..and all wkend i've been worrying about the tonnes of hw i havent completed.and today im slacking like nobody's business.suddenly i dont have that much hw actually.but that's even more stressing cos i dunno why i dont have hw when i do!i think it's just the reading part..shucks im turning into a mugger even b4 wk5 where all our tests call on us.cant help it when on wk4 i have easter to prepare for, wk5 i have pulse and wk6 the guitar concert.so great.so if im being a mugger now pls forgive me i have no choice.why on eath must everything be in apr and im free like nobody's business in may.that's dumb.ok.doing my hw NOW.

feeling a little stressed again.

2006-04-01T11:22:00.000+08:00

as evident from 2 big pimples on my face.wad the. and i look at my hw list i feel like puking.all subj including pw!and i have to come out with a solo for dont dream and prac my sandman.and the worst thing is that my sat is gone from 1230 and my sun is gone till 1530..which means i shouldnt be here blogging!if not i'll only have my sun evening and night to finish all my stuff..so great.but okayy..stj later..shall enjoy myself b4 i start getting a headache by staring at the amt of stuff i have to do.short post..but cant help it.just to update.yeahh.

oops.

2006-03-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

hey..all those who asked am i alright after reading my prev entry im sorry..i was really just disturbed.yeah..as in upset..i'm not pissed or angry..i mean..yeah..dont probe..i cant say it..just take it that it's over.yup.

feeling..disturbed

2006-03-25T21:29:00.000+08:00

im so disturbed..really disturbed.what's this im hearing and seeing in 06s75?just bcos our class is fun-loving and everything does it mean that we can do anything and say anything we want to?does it mean that we would accept anything insulting and upsetting as harmless?we are still sensitive human beings right?for all those tears we shed for jae..it's nothing if we dont see something closer and be sensitive about it.that's it.

Me Poor Head.

2006-03-25T10:18:00.000+08:00

Heyy peeps.im back blogging.To that SOMEONE who said why never update again now i tell ya why.i had a very bad headache yesterday ok?

Yesterday i enjoyed pe like aLOT because i really missed exercising...but after pe due to some reasons i wasn't feeling very well..so i downed 2 cups of lime juice..but i was still feeling bad..went back class bench,drank more water..still bad.So i slept during math lecture(thanks audi for the nice ambience)and i didn't understand a single thing cos of my splitting headache.then during that hour break i didn't eat much..cos i wasn't hungry(for once)cos of that stoopid headache.then it got worse during PW..thanks to that 2 teachers sitting at the side(they caught pple sleeping so i didn't dare to)..was trying to keep awake..so it became worse. then after sch i had nothing to do..so i walked with the rest to serene centre..bad choice i guess..cos it didnt help the headache at all..but the guys were spastic..oh man..so many lame and *ahem* jokes.. ay..guys from some particular sch sure are r******(ok at least they find those jokes funny)hahaha..and after walking back to sch it really became quite jialat.oh..we checked out the studio at King's arcade..it's..very messy and small..but will do la cos it's near sch.
ok..on to my headache..so when i reached class bench my whole head's not thinking..but eunice etc were doing math..so i thought since i have nothing to do i should do too..and guess what..i took half an hour to figure out wad the qn was asking!oh man..so u can see how bad my head was..aye..after completing the sub qns of that qn i just slept at the class bench.and slept somemore on the bus.then when i came home i went online(cos i had to send someone something..afterthat i went off) so no blogging ytd..and my headache actually became better after all that sleeping..and i was still not hungry!i must be mad.then i did some exercise..rot around with the piano and harmonies for Green..then more exercise..then i talked on the phone for a while cos i couldn't go online..then i did more exercise and then i went to bed.and lo behold!my headache's gone!whee!if not there wouldnt be an entry today..so that SOMEONE better thank sleep for being so miraculous=)

another school day.

2006-03-23T18:37:00.000+08:00

well..just want to update on something else besides pulse due to feedback from someone..haha..ok..im really talking about pulse the whole time..just dont really have anything much to blog abt la..and i never realised so many pple visit my blog..can u all please tag??haha

anw..i shall talk about today then..it's just another sch day but i'll go more detailed?haha..basically we had 2 lectures in the morning in the audi..damn nice to sleep..haha..it's like the lights were dimmed and everything..and ooh!it's super cold too!and ok..shall just saail throught the rest of the day..cos i realised there's something to talk abt!

well..today my class decided to call those who have chinese name with a made-up christian name and those with christian name with their chinese name..haha..poor sam la..but at least it's not only her..and christopher's like ke li si tou fu..hahaha..but it only lasted for an hour..haha..think everyone gave up..well except A FEW GUYS.AHEM.

haha..yup!and im going home earlier and earlier!but i must sleep earlier..aiyo..everytime chat till so late..and oh man!im so going to ask for less rice now..too much carbo in my diet!argh..that suck.

Relief.

2006-03-22T20:37:00.000+08:00

Whoo!today's pulse prac was so much better..it's like only sam and eunice came..and i can CONCENTRATE much better.ahem.

and we didnt try school of rock today..i guessed that's why it's better also..but i really could play the rest of the songs better too..haha..i still don't dare to try background vocals..okay..maybe next time i will..get the notes out 1st=)

oh yeah!yawen came today finally!whoo!managed to coodinate quite well la..room for improvement=)it really brings up everything i guess..

man..hope we'll rock the audi down during pulse..go avis!

So disappointed.

2006-03-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

I know i should be sleeping now but i really have to blog about this..im so disappointed with myself!wad on earth was i doing just now at pulse prac?!!

man.i actually screwed up school of rock..wad the.and it's not like my part is very difficult..no excuse for me playing badly.no blaming of rhythm and stuff.no blaming of anything.i just screwed like nobody's business.bleh.

and i screwed the rest too!wad the.i was too complacent..just think that my part's so easy that i don't have to practise much at home.so screwed!wad the.like WAD ON EARTH WAS I THINKING OF!!!!super pissed with myself.and the next prac is tmr again..and for the 1st time i dread a practice session.=Xgoing to drench myself with sch of rock on my way to sch tmr.

Music makes me lose control

2006-03-21T11:31:00.000+08:00

whee!no sch today cos it's founders day..which leaves me one whole day spent on..music!woot=)

i love music!!hahaha..it's music in the morning the afternoon and at night!morning i practise pulse stuff and other songs myself..afternoon's jamming session(whee!) and there's HC idol competition at night(go apollo!)..whee..when can there be such wonderful days like today..haha..feeling high!!

well..one thing that makes me low is that the hole in my pocket is getting bigger..anyone wants to sponsor me for jamming sessions?!!u're ensured a great performance for pulse rock concert=)hahaha..just hope we can coordinate with the singer well..she's so busy..oh wells..im sure we can make it=)

so feel the pulse...rock!may the spirit carry on...

conclusion to the hols..and a meaningful story.

2006-03-19T15:17:00.000+08:00

Woot!class outing rocks..let's have more that's for sure..well besides some injuries everything is fine and going on great=)and this is the end of the march hols..didn't do much besides hw and stoopid econs timed assignment..i dunno wad i should do..to memorise or just get the rough idea..the point is that i don't have any idea now..haha..ok hol concluded.

well..and here's the story:
there is a preacher who was supposed to preach to a 100 odd congregation..and he began by praying.
Dear Lord,thank you for letting us be able to come here to worship you,
and the pple said amen.and he continued
Thank you for letting us have good health
at this,about 10 pple who were ill left
Thank you for letting us have functioning lungs to breathe
10pple with tuberculosis left
Thank you for giving us a blissful family
10 who were divorced and who grew up in single parent family left
Thank you for giving us wealth
10 who were poor left
Thank you for giving us food to eat
10 who were too poor to even afford 3meals a day left
Thank you for a fair and just society
10 who were discriminated and ostrosized by society left
Thank you for friends in our lives
10 elderly men and women who had no friends left
Thank you for giving us warmth in this cold winter
10 who had no winter clothings to keep warm left
Thank you for the intelligence u gave us
10 who didn't have the chance to study or were mentally retarded left
Thank you for giving us a shelter over our heads
10 who didn't have a place to live in left
Thank you for world peace
10 who went to fight in the Vietnam war left
Thank you for everything you've given to us, in Jesus's name we pray amen.
and when he opened his eyes, there was no one left.then he asked: Lord why is there nobody here?
and a voice answered:you've promised them things that i have not bestowed upon them.
He asked:then what have you given to us Lord?
the voice replied:i gave u my son, who died on the cross to wash away your sins, so that u may live again
As this, the preacher went out and saw the congregation out there. He said to them:Brothers!i've cheated you all!The Lord did not promise us a perfect life with no trials!What he gave us is the best present of all, Jesus Christ!and no matter what trials you are going through, He will be there!

At this, everyone rejoiced and went back into the church,and everyone felt a change in their lives.=)

this is my hol.wow.

2006-03-16T12:40:00.000+08:00

w00t.hols are almost over..bleh..everyone(most at least)are lacking..i mean from 06s75..gee..as if most of us will use this time to catch up..cant even finish hw..haha.wells.

class outing and fellowship outing tmr!crashing both sides like hell..haha.then for dinner dunno join which group.shucks.

stupid econs.

feeling random.

w00t.cutting my hair today=)hope it's nice.don't want a super eWW hair style for term2 and pulse!

YAY.pulse songs are done for me=)i love my easy part.simon loves his difficult part though.

and correction to my prev prev prev prev post. @vis ppl are really nice to me.ay..shouldn't be complain-ish abt it..wells..at least i can talk much more to the guys nowXD (but i learnt that i'll never get my hw done with them around)

ok.im rottin'

quote of the day:when pple say differentiate the product,i used to think:are u crazy abt math?now i'd think:u MUST be mad abt econs.

LaLa..

2006-03-10T19:36:00.000+08:00

It's the last day of term1!so fast!oh man..march hols is here!but it's totally not hol..i have to go back to sch for cca and there's hw for every subj:S that's so screwed..

but there's more pulse prac!!woohoo!!looking forward to it again..hope it rocks more this time=)and yawen will be around too..can hear how she sings spirit..yeah!

and i finally updated cos there was the (don't-feel-like-talking-about-it) bio test on thurs..which totally sucked.bleah..been studying like mad and nothing goes in..haha..

the newcomers!!there are 7!!7 lor!!we break record i think..haha..but all are quite nice la..but some quite kelian cos they come from another class and got transferred for no reason..BUT i'm sure they'll like our class..who won't like our class!!haha=)

Oh man!Tengen just told me he wants to come to our class too..then it'll be damn cool if he does..cos 4 of AVIS will be in the same class!but i think cannot la..cos his combi is diff and must make mutual swop anw..but at least his class bench is near..haha..

Gee..so term1's over.i hope the rest of the year rocks too=)(but our timetable sucks!!argh..everyday end at 2 earliest..and got unnecessary breaks and on mon there's like 5 periods of chem stuck together)haha..

How!?!

2006-03-05T19:34:00.000+08:00

MY PARENTS ACTUALLY APPROVE AND ENCOURAGE ME TO JOIN COUNCIL!i'm so surprised!oh no..now i'm in an even bigger dilemma..shucks.how??at least i'm glad that i have until wed to decide..shall look around me and SEE..i don't know if i can handle it..but as i wrote in the prev entry...i think i want to.just not very sure of my capabilities but i guess i can try..but argh!worse come worse i'll just go for fac comm..if i join council i'll go for ECACO(Brendan will be so happy) or maybe WELCO..haha..cos it's meaningful to redefine wellness for ppl=)lol..aye..just lemme decide if i can handle the stress 1st..

Sad..

2006-03-05T16:05:00.000+08:00

My classmates are leaving.i didn't want to blog about this..but i guess i cant stand it anymore..i was trying so hard not to cry..cos they're all so brave abt it..new faces tmr.i wonder...

And WHY on earth is there an urging for me to join council?i know very well that it's not really me..but there just this...i dunno..impulse?it isn't. ay..is it bcos i'm glad that i'm given a chance to stay on and do my part for the sch?or is it bcos i want a change in myself?or wad's the reason?!!!i really dunno..but then my parents wouldn't allow anw..i'm thinking.so hard.no answer.argh!!feel so conflicting inside..

and to stay in guitar or not.it's really quite boring..but when everyone knows how to play it'll sound nice..clement sort of managed to persuade me to stay..but i dunno..maybe i'm taking up another cca..HnF prob..it's managable together with guitar..which means more afternoons gone..i dunno la..really feel quite helpless..

doesn't help when there's 2tests next wk..and to hear the teachers say how "easy" they are..ay..dunno la..feeling super screwed inside me.

well..on a happier note..i can finally wear HC uniform!makes me feel damn proud of HC..although the colour just suck la..ok..cant go any higher..really feeling quite low..signing off..

well..

2006-03-02T19:53:00.000+08:00

hey..i'm updating more frequently now..yay!haha..so read all my entries k..they're all very recent..won't take long=)

anw..sorry.for being so sao xing(spoil the mood) today at bugis..i was really very tired just now..and now i'm online..oops!just want to upload the "neos" we took la..haha..

anw..enjoyed 1st pulse prac today..(would have enjoyed it more if i wasn't so tired and if i knew how to play more of the songs)..it's really great to be in Avis..but sometimes i just wish there are more girls..haha..i'm glad at least i can talk to them alittle..but sometimes still quite difficult to find topic la..now i know why yawen had thots of quitting..it's really quite lonely at times la..but hey..ppl of Avis..u all still rock!i'm sure mo qi can be pei yang-ed..yepyep..love ya guys still=)

Am really quite exhausted from pulse prac and homework and lecture tests next wk!argh..and my wkend is quite busy..die-ded..so i've decided..council is impossible!i rather be devoted to Avis..can continue practising my piano in there..although my parts are quite sian sometimes..but i can slowly learn how to improvise..and ooh!it'll be great if i can learn how to play the rest of the instrus=)lol..ok..that's it for 2dae..

council rocks..and random stuff=)

2006-03-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

oh man!i want to join council!(psycho-ed by Brendan lol)..actually no la..just want to step out of my shell(which prob is the reason for most ppl as well) and contribute to the sch..but the elections really deter me..argh..i cant do the question and answer part haha..my thoughts are slow..i cant reply immediately..haha..and it's the most impt part..of course i worry a little for the stress as well..cos i think i'm dying from avis alr..and if i go home san geng ban ye(super late) everyday my mum will kill me also la..haha..hmm..maybe i'll join fac comm instead=)i'll feel more comfortable working in a smaller group anw..bcos for council u really do everything and anything..haha..not much of a focus..

ok..for random stuff..just wanna say i feel much better and alittle less stress now!i was super disciplined 2dae..dunno y..finished all my homework!it's like WOW..i cant believe i did it..now i can concentrate on the bio and chem lecture test next wk and on avis stuff=)i was really quite scared i couldn't cope for the test cos i'm really busy from tmr till sun..but now there's a half day tmr so jamming will end earlier..and stj is sort of cancelled so i have more time on sat..so yay!more time and less stress!woohoo!super happy now=)

Excited.and alittle stressed.

2006-02-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

Uh..yep..abt the title..pulse rock really rocks!and i'm super excited about it..i mean..the rest of Avis's been there for 1yr+and this is their 1st proper concert too..and i just join and i get to play in a concert?!super excited and enthu!!and i realised keys ain't=nothing or cant be heard..i feel damn important!it's like i join this band just for the experience..didn't expect much..and everytime i hear rock music i cant hear the keys! but now i can.and super clearly too..which=i'm feeling half-dead..

My part is like holding everything together for one of the song..and i'm even going to have a solo for the instrumental piece..haha..which explains y..i'm a little stressed.i practise my part like hell!!bcos it's really a very very nice song..i really don't mind the practise part..but just want to perfect it so badly..haha..to live up to expectations..yeah..so i'm like trying to complete my homework faster everyday so that i can prac..haha..

i'm really quite crazy abt the concert..i think abt it day and night..during lessons etcetc..and i can hear ck and simon tapping and singing alittle at times..and it gets me all excited and everything..haha..i'm going bonkers soon..hope this craziness don't die off before the concert..rock on Avis!!

Pulse rock rocks!

2006-02-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

Ok!finally updated bcos lots of ppl are bugging me to..i'm one busy person k?haha..joking=)

Anw..pulse rock concert is coming up!it's on 21st Apr held in HC's very own auditorium!With professional equippments and all!(i'll enjoy that) be sure not to miss it because AVIS will rock the place down!(still can't believe some ppl in my class don't know how this band name came abt..thot it was pretty obvious..)LOL..we'll be playing a wide variety of songs..don't know if i can reveal them..but anw there'll be one super duper nice song that u all really can't miss!so come and catch it on the 21st of Apr!See ya there!Thanks for all the supporters for the auditions and it's ok for those who missed it..just come for the actual thing!=)