poor tired leaders of the future

inspired by an amusing encounter on the bus where this sec sch girl just conked out with her head nodding in all directions until she finally rested it on my shoulders.

i used to think that hey cant u control your head when u sleep?i can sleep and yet keep an upright position all the time.

now i know why.bcos i do that myself.often end up with neck aches and prob a few "baklukus"(bumps) on my head when i wham my head against the window.damm.

hey people, cant u see the worn out youths of today?cant u see them fishing out their mp3s and sleeping as if there's no tmr on the buses and trains?

saw my junior(now in njc) on the bus.used to board from the same bustop as she did in sec sch,but when we go home i alight one stop earlier.when i turned around to say bye to her since im alighting, she was still sleeping!aiya.so was i b4 i woke up.and so i msged her after i got down so that she'll wake up on time to alight at the bustop.

aiya poor girls,poor boys. trying to catch that precious forty winks on the bus.trying to fight for every minute of sleep possible.trying to recuperate fast enough to start studying again when they reach home.study study study.memorise memorise memorise.exam exam exam.forget forget forget.and so the cycle goes.and by the time it ends at forgetx3 we enter society,work work work.wad did we learn in the past err..10+ years?dont know.then why was i so tired?i dont know.in the end i just end up with a load of questions which my brain refuses to answer.

write write write.drip drip drip.flip flip flip.staple staple staple. wad do u get?a stack of wasted precious paper with scribblings and half the pen ink left with absolutely no benefit.when there's no benefit and yet there's high social cost was should we do?BAN!HAHA!the paper could have been put to better use, for pple who need wood to build houses, keep themselves warm, etc.and we use them to write stuff that we wont take another glance again.awww.

tired children of SG unite!sleep tired boy sleep sleep tired boy, sleep tired girl sleep sleep tired girl.yeah.sleep in peace.for there's no such thing as exams.

*snores*

.+val+. says:
aiya.actually im guillty of not working hard for promos like i did for blocks
`eunice says:
SERIOUS?
`eunice says:
i mug like siao for promos
.+val+. says:
somehow along the way i've really given up.all of a sudden i dont feel the stress
.+val+. says:
YALA.when no one's mugging for that stupid blocks i mug like siao.when everyone's mugging like siao for promos wad the hell am i doing?i dont know.
`eunice says:
hmmm. i think i get what u mean
`eunice says:
its the fatigue.
.+val+. says:
sure i've finished reading a hell lot of things but it's the effort put in for getting everything into your head
.+val+. says:
haha u've got it right.i guess.no im sure
.+val+. says:
im tired of trying to get my As.im tired of working so hard for what?it's just promos.not like i wont get promoted.
.+val+. says:
i need a bloody break to study for A levels.that's the goal.the real goal.
.+val+. says:
if i continue like wad i did for blocks for promos and for blocks 1 and 2 next yr i'll just die 1st
.+val+. says:
so i'll be disappointed for promos.not like i care(oh wait i do) but aiya.i know i need this break la.

and so the convo goes.guess i've finally said out wad's been bugging me.no.eunice said it out.fatique.aiya.i was complaining like siao during blocks alr.guess i really couldnt stand it this time.haha.so yeah.guess what.im stressless now.worryless.maybe a little.exams are..dumb.shouldnt take it so hard.it's just something there for me to get to the next yr.i have an ultimate goal.promos are...nothing.HAHAHAHAHA.

okay maybe im going insane.oh no im not.u can choose to believe or not.im perfectly sane.

oh yes im sane.

jiayou for everyone out there.

i shall drift across this whole ocean.and it'll be over in a breeze.

一滴水

一滴水
滴进杯子里
是否听见
妈妈的用心？

一滴水
滴在书信上
是否看见
家人的眷恋？

一滴水
滴在花卉中
是否闻着
花的感激？

一滴水
渗透了衣服
是否感受到
一个人的软弱？

(those who cant see this go encoding unicode)

AAAIIIYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
sometimes i dont know why i have so many 滴 of 水 in me.and at times like this they never fail me.nah it's not only bcos of promos.ive given up on it.since it's here i'll accept the fact and just go for it.oh wells.life sucks?perhaps.but then again i wont want a smooth road all the way, bcos life sucks even more that way -- there's no purpose, nothing.

Don't go around saying the world owes you a living; the world owes you nothing; it was here first. -Mark Twain

and so it is.thank God.

blogging again.

which is like crap.cos i've been telling myself i shouldnt come online anymore till promos are over.but guess wad.i guess i'll still be coming online prob everyday.and prob i stay online the longest everyday too.cos now i dont see anyone online in the afternoon,and i still am all the way till night.pls tell me im not addicted to turning on the comp.i can just on it for nothing,or rather for the very fact that im bored.funnily the nearer it is to promos the more im slacking.or was i already slacking since dont know when.damm.suddenly feel like posting a pic.lemme find a random one...

..aha found one!one of the firework display that day.actually this pic was pretty much accidental.was trying to take a pic of the blue balloon,and just when i press the button the fireworks came out!love it=)it was a really memorable day,and i was really really happy.but all happy things always come to an end.but more happy things always come as well!so be happy!life is an exciting rollercoaster ride,one that takes the breath of out u,and at the end of the day, u'd be satisfied somehow.

bored.

which explains me doing the following:

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

What Color Green Are You?

emerald green is nice!although i think i'll prefer pale green or erm..this kind of green.oh wells.im i that harmonious?hmm.

promos coming..

in a grand total of 5 days.realised i've never really count down to promos.maybe i was just hoping and wishing that it wouldnt come yet..or that it'll be over already?oh wells.all i know is that i wont be able to finish studying.and so i shall just do my best.haha,maybe even not my best.cos i do slack.which reminds me of CT session today--stress management with siva.woots. he treated us!hahaha.and we're still thinking of ponning it cos we thought we would get scolded..cos so many pple pon sch.i would too if i could i guess,or maybe i wont.haha.in the end it was just yakking and drinking.asnd he said thank you for all the laughter and jokes u shared with me.woots!hahaha.shant comment on that.

okay.being more lax now i can finally do work!hey being lax doesnt mean slacking ok.it just spares me from the additional mental power of being too stressed.but i shall slack more.i know i'll be disappointed la but cant be helped.hehx)okay.off to do work.

oh wait.got some photos to post.i've got a nice colour gradient-ed water bottle when i poured ribena syrup into my water b4 stirring.think it's so pretty=)


pretty right?=D

and i officially declare that i love happy songs than sad songs.cos they make me happy, although sad songs can be nice too.okay.that's just..random=D

finally admitted.

yes,i've finally admitted im not superwoman.i've finally broke down.all the time of sticking a "im hangin' on" expression, washed away by a moment of despair and helplessness. im tired.

maybe i'll be better tmr.as a normal girl who finally understands there's a limit to what she can achieve.as a normal girl who finally sees the world with a open attitude.as a normal girl who finally, BE a normal girl.